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can you suggest a good alternative to hairspray? a product that is not greasey and provides definition? something that is air-travel safe?

this morning i gave my hair a good spray, then threw-up from inhaling the exhaust. not fun.

since brendan's in this new routine he gets up at the same time as me in the mornings. i like this, but it makes me go slower because i end up chatting with him. today we noticed that the little ceramic heater we use in the washroom wasn't working and both stood there fiddling with it. i have a feeling it's because i unintentionally got water all over it a few days ago :S turning it on while i was in the shower was not something i fully thought thru.

at the beginning of autumn, i decided that i would let my armpit hair grow out over the winter to see how i like it. it was interesting and i didn't mind it exactly. sometimes i would mindlessly tug on it. but when it came to wearing short-sleeves i was always self-conscious. not because i fear judgement, or think it looks bad, it just feels incredibly private. i don't want anyone to see my natural armpits! how embarrassing! they'd turned into some kind of mini armpit crotches or something. i felt i should keep my arms down in the same way that i feel i should cross my legs when wearing a shirt. not for public viewing! so a number of weeks ago i concluded that natural pits were not for me. i enjoy not shaving, i think women who have natural pits are totally the bomb, but i'm not ready for unshaved pits myself. maybe someday, but not now. my hairy legs i really like, but that might be because they're not dissimilar from my hair arms. that's a positive association, unlike the idea of armpit crotches. so i shaved this morning. i would've done it back when i made the decision a few weeks ago, but i'd discovered that the razer that i'd left in the shower had gone all rusty and i'm overdue for my tetnus shot. so now my pits are freed from the yoke of my own oppression and no longer have to hide in the shadows. it feels nice.

maybe unshaved armpits is the kind of thing one needs to try a few times before it fits.

the google doodle really made me mad today. i don't understand it and kept expecting it to be linked to something. now every time i see it, it feels like it's taunting me. how can a doodle be smarter than me?!?!?

if it seems like i'm dreaming don't wake me.