after 4 weeks back at work, i can confidently say things are going well. i'm adjusting to my new routine, i'm enjoying my work, i like my new workstation, and éamon's doing well at daycare. he didn't cry at pick-up at all this week. i really like it when i arrive and he's playing well independently.
but i do have one problem. my new workstation is in a different part of the building (it's literally 50ft from my old spot, but it actually makes a significant difference), and i don't really know any of my neighbours (other than being acquainted). i'm a good conversationalist, but i am shy, especially when i have no reason to break the ice. actually... i'm shy AND independent, which means that i literally have no reason to interact with the people around me. they're in different departments than me. we work in parallel to one another, but never work together. i can go hours without speaking to anyone in person (my team is all in europe). i find myself in a bit of a funny situation, because i like having my freedom to do my own thing and i REALLY like not being interrupted. BUT i know that if i stay on this trajectory, that i'll increasingly invisible, and i'll start to feel lonely. i'm pretty sure that there are some around me that don't quite know what to think of this random person in their midst. in the past, when i've been friendly with people outside my department, it's been when they're very outgoing and break the ice with me. but unfortunately... two of those people have DIED (ugh! i miss them both!) and another two left the company. so i've decided to start putting myself out there more. to smile and say hello to people. i might even have to forgo listening to music, because i'm sure my headphones are contributing to my isolation.
bah. it's ok, i'll give it time.
on another note... never in my life have i wished for a band to break up and for all their music to be accidentally deleted from every source. until now. when i was pregnant, i listened to 'of monsters and men' and lot, i really liked them. BUT i listened to them while suffering from morning sickness, and now whenever i hear them i get nauseous. yuck! i wish i never had to hear them again.
but i do have one problem. my new workstation is in a different part of the building (it's literally 50ft from my old spot, but it actually makes a significant difference), and i don't really know any of my neighbours (other than being acquainted). i'm a good conversationalist, but i am shy, especially when i have no reason to break the ice. actually... i'm shy AND independent, which means that i literally have no reason to interact with the people around me. they're in different departments than me. we work in parallel to one another, but never work together. i can go hours without speaking to anyone in person (my team is all in europe). i find myself in a bit of a funny situation, because i like having my freedom to do my own thing and i REALLY like not being interrupted. BUT i know that if i stay on this trajectory, that i'll increasingly invisible, and i'll start to feel lonely. i'm pretty sure that there are some around me that don't quite know what to think of this random person in their midst. in the past, when i've been friendly with people outside my department, it's been when they're very outgoing and break the ice with me. but unfortunately... two of those people have DIED (ugh! i miss them both!) and another two left the company. so i've decided to start putting myself out there more. to smile and say hello to people. i might even have to forgo listening to music, because i'm sure my headphones are contributing to my isolation.
bah. it's ok, i'll give it time.
on another note... never in my life have i wished for a band to break up and for all their music to be accidentally deleted from every source. until now. when i was pregnant, i listened to 'of monsters and men' and lot, i really liked them. BUT i listened to them while suffering from morning sickness, and now whenever i hear them i get nauseous. yuck! i wish i never had to hear them again.
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