rose: while taking an evening walk with my kids, i was thinking about our upcoming change of routine. i've been worried about it. i've been feeling a little down about the transition (even though i'm excited about the new routine). but thankfully, during our walk, i thought about how when i've been on vacation, or during that week that eamon was in VBC, it only took 1 or 2 days to get into a routine. so i feel encouraged that it won't take weeks or two months to find a rhythm.

thorn: finding childcare for otis continues to be a struggle. i had one lead that fell through, and another possibility that i'm not super comfortable with (i don't know her at all, and don't even have any mutual friends to ask about her). it's a lot to trust a stranger with a baby when they don't come with any recommendations. also, my sunglasses smell like urine. sometimes, when i'm at next, i just put otis's diapers in my tote bag and i throw them out at home (i don't want them stinking up next). i'd lost my sunglasses for most of the summer, only to find them in my tote bag. while wearing them, i could distinctly smell urine, but didn't know why. thankfully i figured it out.