i'm feeling pretty low this morning. despite the fact that i tried to arrange for things to go more smoothly yesterday, it didn't. the reality is that having a broken foot is a major inconvenience and a huge parenting obstacle. i keep thinking "just two more weeks", but next week is going to be the hardest part yet (with brendan going away for 4ish days). 

probably the trickiest thing is that after a difficult and challenging bout with my kids, i just want to be alone and decompress. which seems like i'm turning away from brendan and causes tension between us for no reason. 

all in all, this just sucks. big time.