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thing have been on the busy side at work lately, so i haven't had the chance to write as often.

this morning i had a dentist appointment. i had to have 2 fillings :S it turns out that they were just two leaky fillings from before and no new ones, so that's good. i didn't take care of my teeth enough as a young lady. i was under the impression when i had my original 8 fillings a couple years ago that once you have a filling you can't have a cavity in that tooth again. but i was wrong. i'd like to really take care of my teeth well from now on.

do you ever listen to cfrc?? well, my new brother-in-law ben has a new show on monday afternoons (2:30). it's pretty good and his commentary is extremely funny. i listened to it online while at work on monday. i would giggle in my cubicle.

i want to learn to listen better. better in general not specifically. when i'm talking with people i have lots of questions or interject with comments and affirmation. but i'm starting to realize if i just kept my mouth shut then they're likely to say all sorts of interesting things. things i wouldn't get out of them by asking. see... the problem with asking is that it can sometimes lead the conversation in alternate directions. i'm suddenly intrigued by what is said when i wait and listen.

i finished the girl who played with fire on monday evening. i had planned to do a ton of different things around the pad, but ended up just reading. reading and baking smores. it was such a great book. it's funny that even though i knew how it ended (because i saw the movie) it was STILL a page turner. i really want to go out and buy the final book of the series, but i've decided to read a book that devona suggested - we're seeing her again in september for our final session and i think it would be wise to take the counselor's advise and read the book she suggested. it's called "highly sensitive people" - as it turns out both b and i are HSP types. the term highly sensitive people seems to be a misnomer. it implies that they're sensitive to getting their feelings hurt, but it's actually referring to people being highly sensitive to the environment around them then becoming affected by it. the author regularly talks about HSP's being over-aroused. it's probably more actuate to call the book "highly aroused people", but that just sounds rude. although, saying highly sensory or highly simulated people would work just as well. as much as being addictive to reading is kind of debilitating (because nothing else gets done), it's also really wonderful. i was on a roll and i hope it doesn't slow to a stop because i'm reading non-fiction (which is not the type of book i'm drawn to).

i need the darkness, someone please cut the lights.