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so i went to work for about an hour and half, i got the necessities done, then left again. this cold has me down for the count. it's really holding on tight. which seems to be the nature of this season's colds.

i was in bed all day with the exception of taking meals. brendan was not impressed with me for eating toast in bed while he was trying to sleep. i watched movies and seinfeld on dvd, read and knit. i'm really happy because i'm making some serious progress with my knitting. i had knitters-block for a while, but i've had a breakthru.

i have this knack for losing things in my home. we were given a nice brown bed-skirt as a wedding gift back in june. when i went to put it on our bed months back i couldn't find it. i searched the whole pad, and was found wanting. it was very frustrating. last week bren was over, and i was telling her about the missing bed-skirt, it was going to look so nice with our duvet if i ever found it. then on saturday, after i barfed i asked brendan to pass me a kleenex, and suddenly i saw the bedskirt sitting on our bedside table. i have NO idea how it could have remained there unseen for all those months. i feel like an idiot! however, i'm happy that it's found, and it looks smashing.

great news! when i was briefly at work today i was FINALLY given my goodlife membership. hooray!! i can't wait to start working my ass off – literally. i feel sad when i see pictures of myself these days. thankfully, as paul mccartney says "love is kind" (instead of love is blind) so b still thinks i look nice. i look forward to being more in shape and feeling better about myself – both in how i feel and how i feel i look. for some reason, it always happens that i'm growing out my hair when i'm trying to lose weight. it would be nice if i liked one of those things right now, but it's rewarding having something to look forward to and work towards. i remember a few years ago when i achieved my ideal weight and had my hair long i kind of felt directionless. i didn't know what to do with myself.

all you dreams are waking up.