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for some reason i'm growing tired of facebook. actually, tired isn't quite the right word, more like weary. it's not facebook itself, but i kind of miss the days when people had actual status updates rather opinion pieces. i didn't ask, nor do i care, why are you telling me this. what i am interested in is what you're up to lately.

i'm also a little increasingly uncomfortable when it seems a person is using facebook to fill some kind of emotional need. i think everyone has a legitimate need for connection and community, but it strikes me as sad when facebook is (or appears to be) the only means of relationship. i've seen people put extremely personal information (such as details of marital strife) on facebook, and it made me so sad because that's the kind of info that should be shared with close friends or family, not 260+ of your closest acquaintances.

and i think it also troubles me that i compulsively check my facebook (without conscious intention), even though there's never really that many updates in the course of a couple hours. yesterday i didn't check it all day until evening (which was what i'd do while working), and i was caught up in a matter of minutes, so it's really not necessary for me to check it so often.

all of this said, i think it's better for me to put a little distances between this tool that can both amuse and irritate me. during the lenten season, i decided to put restrictions on my use of netflix. maternity leave + nursing + netflix = a lot of wasted time. when i was a kid, my mom would let us watch an 1.5 hours of tv a day, and would regularly tell us that she'd rather we used our imagination, which i value. i don't really know how much time i was spending watching netflix, but i can be sure that i wasn't using my imagination or other forms of creativity or activities that i value. so i'm reverting to my childhood rules around tv, and have already found this a very rewarding discipline. i've been reading, praying, reflecting, and in general managing my time much better. so i think i'll keep to this schedule come easter.

i will not be a victim of circumstance.