mandolin

even though i shouldn't be surprised, i was struck today when i realized by how conversations with my girl-friends have changed. five years ago, while sharing a meal with friends, the conversation would've been about dating and men. but today, during brunch with shannon and scarlete, we talked about babies and finances. i suppose it's natural for discussions to evolve with life circumstances, but it still amused me some. it just emphasized that we're growing, changing and maturing into adults.

i'm sure i've mentioned this before, but spring always feels like my season. what i mean by that is that i feel so much more comfortable in my body and so liberated in general that it's a season i feel able to really thrive in. this afternoon, i left éamon at home with brendan and headed down to the grocery store. i was wearing my spring/fall vest, new pants (which are 3 sizes smaller than what i had been wearing), and a new bag that arrived today from etsy. i don't know if it was the freedom of my winter jacket, the fact that my pants fit me and didn't sag or bunch, or just the excitement of my long-awaited bag, but i was reminded of what it's like to be streamline and to feel good in my own skin. i feel like i've really come into my own. it's encouraging. plus, even though i know we still have a few weeks left of winter, these pockets of spring-like weather here and there will definitely get me through :)

i bought this ben howard album last spring. i remember not getting as hooked on it as i'd expected myself to at the time. there was part of me that wondered if my timing was just off and that i might've connected with it better in another season of my life. it seems that season is now. i'm hooked on it like it was brand new. it's funny how that is sometimes.

the river's cracked and cold.