i've been feeling a little lost today. it's funny, because i usually have tuesdays at home with just otis. so you wouldn't think this day would be out of the ordinary. but i definitely feel different. i can't remember what i usually do on tuesdays. how i spend my time. what's my regular routine, do i have a regular routine? we (otis and me) dropped eamon of at MBES this morning. and i feel a little bit in limbo, waiting to pick him up in 2.5 hours. he did really well. he seemed to understand everything fully, and didn't whine or cling when it was time to go inside without me. i chalk this up partly to curiosity, and partly school-readiness, and his experience at daycare.

i keep thinking of the movie forrest gump. when he sits and waits on a tree stump all day for his son to return from his first day of kindergarten. that's what my heart is doing today.