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my mind has been drifting to persons and thoughts i'd prefer to forget about. i tell myself it gets easier with time, but then out of the blue my brain fills like a bucket and there's little i can do. i suppose i knew, as the day approaches, this was bound to happen. maybe it has nothing to do with current events, but there's no way of knowing for sure. i will get thru. i'll clench my teeth and pretend to be brave because in doing so i may convince myself that i am.

a bank machine confiscated my card today as soon as i inserted it. so now i haven't a penny to my name and no freakin' debit card til monday. good thing the goat takes visa.

today i bought some straps to tether my pants while i ride my bike. so now i ride around with my skater helmet and bell-bottoms tightly fastened to my legs with my pig-tails blowing in the wind. i'm some kind of crazy juxtaposition of who knows what.

this afternoon i painted the second coat of stain on my balcony. it looks good. it was difficult with the wind and my paint tray kept flipping over and flying away. it was messy.

he told to tell me i sway more when i walk if i know that he's watching. i think he's right.

you may ask yourself
am i right? ...am i wrong?
and you may tell yourself
my god!...what have i done?