rust

i'm the last of the mohicans.

for the first time in modern western society, i find myself without crush. this is the first time i can think of that i don't have feelings for some guy, and i'm telling ya... that's something special. i'm really enjoying it. i don't spend hours mooning over someone, missing someone, daydreaming about someone. it's so liberating to not be consumed that way. and thankfully, i'm not finding it too boring. probably because it's summer and there's loads to do. i think i feel like a woman for the first time in my life. i don't want anyone interfering or knocking me of kilter. keep the men away. keep them all at bay.

i'm tangled up in tries,
slipping on i wonder why.