crash

i have a phobia of accidentally sending an email to the wrong addressee. i wrote my mom a big long email today, and about ten minutes later i got a glimpse of it in my outbox and realized that i'd sent it to rhonda by accident. HAHa. thankfully it was just little r because i didn't say anything overly personal that wouldn't normally tell her anyway.

i was just making my tomato and fennel salad for a dinner party i'm going to after work tomorrow with my workmates. when i was finished i poured it all into a large serving bowl. when i lived with melinda, she would often eat out of that bowl, i always commented on it, but it wasn't until about a year later that she realized it was a serving bowl and not a dinner bowl. hahaha, i remembered that as i took it down from the cupboard and it made me giggle.

things went well today. work was good, i was comfy and had plenty to do. my headlight fell out again, but i think i've got it back in proper-like. i've put on about 5 to 10 pounds, and i need to make a decided effort to shed them before they turn into 15 or 20. i've been forcing myself to do 30 minutes on my elliptical 4 times a week, and i must confess.... i HATE IT! it's SO hard and i feel like i'm dying. it's exhausting, i push myself really hard. BUT hopefully if i preserver i'll lose the weight in no time and no longer have to endure such self-inflicted torture.

it took so much effort not to make an effort.