i'm having a difficult time distinguishing between fiction and non-fiction. what's real and what's my imagination? i'm so confused i don't know what's what anymore. then out of the blue i have my sister's exboyfriend giving me unsolicited advise and i want to say to him "listen, i don't recall asking you, or even talking to you in the last 14 years". just because i wear my life on my sleeve doesn't mean everyone gets to have an opinion about it.
today is the first ever family day (as you already know). the only thing i really wanted to do today was sleep in. i've been having a huge battle every morning getting out of bed, and have been looking forward to this weekend for that exact reason. when i finally pulled back my covers this morning it was around noon. i was awake for a little while before that, but i just enjoy lying in bed in a dozy state, paralyzed with comfort. i have to admit while i laid in bed i kind of felt sorry for myself that i don't have any special to do on this holiday in february. however, then i decided that what i need this time of year more than a vacation day is a mental health day. i seriously think anticipating this long weekend has been the exact reason why i haven't had a sick day yet this year.
although, i still felt a need for some company. and seeing as i'm a proactive person and find sitting around waiting incredibly painful, i decided to call joanna and see if she'd like to go out to a flick with me tonight.
joy's due to pop out the little mr at any moment. she's trying to occupy herself with school because she's anxious to get that kid out of her already. i would find that so difficult. that would make me crazy. i say in complete honesty, that i'm not controlling. i'm pretty sure others would agree, but i can't be sure (i know a lot of controlling people who claim that they're not). BUT i find facing something out of my control very very difficult. this is because i'm a very task oriented person, if something needs to be done, i like to just do it. i don't cope well with uncertainty. i can even deal with bad news better than no news.
with your feet in the air and your head on the ground,
try this trick and spin it around.
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I teach kids the difference between fiction and non-fiction regularly...want me to photocopy some worksheets for you? My tutoring rates are very reasonable :)
i understand about coping with bad news better than no news.... it's starting to bother me that we don't yet know where we're going next. i was, repeat was, in a state of having it not bother me, but that state seems to have disappeared. i'd like for it to come back. here's hoping your sister has her baby soon!
yes, please jo.
thanks dawna. it's nice to know that what i'm feeling is normal. i find it kind of alarming that i can't just be content in the unknown. maybe we'll both arrive in that state at the same time :)
i think it's totally natural to want to know. maybe i'm not supposed to say that out loud.
I think it's natural, too.
I remember when I first met Jason, telling my sister and her boyfriend that I couldn't wait for it to be half a year down the road and hopefully settled into a relationship. As exciting as the beginning was, I longed for a bit more certainty and stability.
It's a little different with having a baby because at least you know (more or less) WHAT's going to happen - just not WHEN.
Oh, and by the way, I AM fairly controlling. It's taken me a long time to admit that, and it's something I'm working really hard to change.
see, and i was impatient as anything for fiona to finally not be a puppy anymore, because puppies get into TROUBLE.
unfortunately, it's turned out to be a character trait, trouble.
oh wait. that was a total tangent on what rachel was saying...
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