memorial

oh my belly... i ate too many organic swedish berries.

guess what?!!? i bought boggle today. i woke up with an overwhelming urge to play it. historically, i haven't been much of a game person. i think it's because 95% of my friends are girls and we usually sit around knitting and chatting. but it's also that i'm not competitive at all, i don't care enough, it's just a game. however, i got thinking about my aversion to competition and realized something.... winning has never boded well for me. in the past when i've won at something (admittedly not very often because i really don't care about winning), the person i was playing against has made a big stink. i remember with one boyfriend, we'd played chess about 30 times, then i won and he refused to ever play with me again. same thing happened when we played tennis. that makes a person feel this |----| big. when i was in elementary school, if i ever got a C on a test or project i would just leave it on my desk, i didn't care if anyone saw it. but if i got an A i would flip it over because i didn't want the person who got a C to feel bad. i don't mind competitive people, i just wish they were mindful of their actions. making someone feel crappy for winning is a terrible thing to do. i hate sore losers, they ruin things and take the fun out of everything. i'm excited about boggle, i'm taking it to rhonda's tonight. this doubles my game collection! although, yatzhee doesn't belong to me, it's melinda's. man, i love prison-rules yatzhee.

i'm a wildflower. you're a wallflower.

everybody makes mistakes,
but i feel alright when i come undone.