buds

when i was 16 i fell in love with achtung baby – i've talked about this before. it is my ground zero as far as albums go for me. however, it's pretty much a known fact that the joshua tree is considered u2's all time best album. i disagree due to my preferential treatment of achtung baby. i own more u2 albums than any other band in existence, the famous joshua tree has been absent from my collection. i've felt no need to add it, but it occured to me the other day that since it's u2's most critically acclaimed album that perhaps i might want to give it a fair shot. so i bought it yesterday and plan to listen to it for the next week or two in my cube. i'll let you know how that goes.

i love my mom. she makes me a little crazy, but a lot of moms do that to their kids. i know she tried her best in raising me on her own, and all things considered i think she did a good job. to be truthfully, she also screwed me up a fair bit too, but no one's perfect so i don't hold that against her. i don't think it's likely to reach adulthood unscathed. we were perhaps too close when i was a teenager, that made it hard to move out on my own in my early twenties. it hurt us both a lot, it was like tearing a branch off a tree – far less natural than that process should have been. it took a long time for us to develop some equilibrium, but we managed. and now i'm pleased with how things stand between us. i've learned to let some things go in one ear and out the other. i've learned to speak up when necessary. i've learned to appreciate where she's coming from (which makes it easier to ignore some of the things she says).

i "met" my exboyfriend today. we were introduced by someone who didn't know we were acquainted. i was temped to say "yes, we've met before, i know him in the biblical sense". but instead i looked at him with a smirk and twinkle in my eye because we were sharing a secret, but he returned my expression with a stone face and looked away. i inwardly rolled my eyes at him, it's been almost 10 years, i think it's time you get over the fact that I DUMPED YOU!

perfect strangers down the line,
lovers out of time,
memories unwind.