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it's that time of year again. ash wednesday is approaching and i've been contemplating lent once again. i reflected on last year's experiences, considered what other people give up, and thought long and hard about the practice of lent. i came to some conclusions for myself. i wanted something that was a challenge – that would be a true sacrifice, but not something that i was giving up just because i liked it. i don't see the point of giving up drinking tea for example just because it's something i enjoy. i wanted more significance than that. i feel that in giving something up, it should have a positive impact on my life. i also didn't want to give up something that i wouldn't care about and i didn't even notice it's absence. so i decided to give up sleep. well, more specifically i decided to give up sleeping in. i'll get up at 6:00 every day, even on weekends. technically i'm supposed to be up at 6:30 anyways, but i never do it, i usually get up closer to 7. it will be enough of a challenge that it will be effective. now, the only hurdle is that i'm going on vacation to cuba with shannon in a week and a half. so i've decided to start lent a week early so that i can sleep in proper while on vacation. i'll do my full 40 days starting tomorrow. i'm kind of looking forward to it. it means living my life with more intention, and taking care of myself better. that being said, i'm going to start getting ready for bed very soon.

i really enjoyed lunchtime yoga today. except my skin was extremely dry and it seemed to crack apart in certain positions, which resulted in constant itching. it was terrible. i think i'm in need of some warm cuban air.

lately it feels like i'm asleep and i just can't wake.