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i'm preaching again tomorrow, and i'm feeling kind of stressed.

the writing part is no problem, i'm pretty comfortable and good at that.

the researching and forming ideas i enjoy, it's a great challenge.

speaking in front of a group of people again not a problem.

but the combination of speaking what i've written poses a big problem. i'm not as articulate in my spoken self as i am in my written self. i feel frustrated that i'm not able to convey my thoughts as well as i wrote them. i'm really disappointing.

i tried reading my sermon over and over out loud today. i almost started saying it louder as i read in hopes of it re-entering my ears and really taking root in my noggin.

i'm trying to relax and to just trust that everything will go fine. if i don't hold fast to my verbiage it will probably go better. i'm not a perfectionist, but i know i can do better than stumble my way thru. i'll let you know how it goes :S

it seems that in my two most commonly worn pair of pants, i've developed holes in my upper thigh region. i'm not sure what to do. i know i need to replace them, but there's not point until i loose weight. so as a result i've been wearing skirts over my pants more often than usual.

speaking of my pants. they are feeling rather tight. actually, a lot of things are. i feel frustrated. especially after i'd felt like i was starting to loose weight. really annoying. i must be pmsing – hopefully. i really want to make that 10 pound goal.

God is not a man sitting on a cloud.