for the first time in recent history i'm really loving the snow!!
as a kid i loved the snow.
as a teenager i liked snow on my birthday and christmas, but other than that it was an annoyance. i remember one time there was a snow storm and we couldn't get the car out of the driveway which meant we couldn't get to youth group which meant i couldn't see the boy i liked. i was annoyed.
as a young adult i hated the snow because it meant shoveling and it was cold, it was dangerous, and it happened in the darkest season of the year. all in all winter was depressing.
but now as a sophomore adult, i'm learning to love the snow again. it requires thinking ahead, driving more carefully, dressing appropriately, but none of those things are unbearable. i like the feeling of being cozy instead a building with the snow falling outside and the ground being covered in a layer of white. i like winter accessories. i like how beautiful the world looks during my morning commute.
i feel happy.
last night i worked and worked on my self-created mess. i cleaned and i tidied. i found a place for placeless things. man i feel good about it. i accomplished a lot. awesome. i still need to tackle my desk at some point, but hopefully i'll keep things more tidy from here on in. the spring was so hectic that i'm still just getting around to dealing with the mess created back then. it's funny actually because although i'm not naturally tidy, i really like tidiness. b was surprised to discover this and wondered why this craving for tidy was coming from. i think it's because my mom's house is mega tidy. she grew up in a hotel and her upbringing has never left her. perhaps my upbringing has never left me either. i'm just very cyclical about it and not consistant.
as a kid i loved the snow.
as a teenager i liked snow on my birthday and christmas, but other than that it was an annoyance. i remember one time there was a snow storm and we couldn't get the car out of the driveway which meant we couldn't get to youth group which meant i couldn't see the boy i liked. i was annoyed.
as a young adult i hated the snow because it meant shoveling and it was cold, it was dangerous, and it happened in the darkest season of the year. all in all winter was depressing.
but now as a sophomore adult, i'm learning to love the snow again. it requires thinking ahead, driving more carefully, dressing appropriately, but none of those things are unbearable. i like the feeling of being cozy instead a building with the snow falling outside and the ground being covered in a layer of white. i like winter accessories. i like how beautiful the world looks during my morning commute.
i feel happy.
last night i worked and worked on my self-created mess. i cleaned and i tidied. i found a place for placeless things. man i feel good about it. i accomplished a lot. awesome. i still need to tackle my desk at some point, but hopefully i'll keep things more tidy from here on in. the spring was so hectic that i'm still just getting around to dealing with the mess created back then. it's funny actually because although i'm not naturally tidy, i really like tidiness. b was surprised to discover this and wondered why this craving for tidy was coming from. i think it's because my mom's house is mega tidy. she grew up in a hotel and her upbringing has never left her. perhaps my upbringing has never left me either. i'm just very cyclical about it and not consistant.
just room enough for regret.
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