chocolate

when i left for work this morning i found an old, discarded, stale donut on my bicycle. i hope it's not an indicator of the kind of day i'm going to have.

this is my last day of work for 2010. hooray!! i'm so happy. it's been a great week. yesterday i made it thru the entire day with only speaking to one, maybe two people (if you count the telephone). my introverted self is extremely invigorated by this. perhaps no one will speak to me at all today :D the parking lot is getting emptier and emptier each day. usually my car is the last one in the parking lot when i leave on christmas eve eve.

i didn't mention this at the time, but last year on my christmas vacation brendan and i cohabited. he came and lived with me at the maxi pad for a week or so. i didn't talk about it on pspd because we'd decided to not tell brendan's housemate or else he'd get some flack from them. also, my mom was distressed when i told her about the idea, she's very concerned about "the appearances of evil", but it was totally appropriate - he insisted on having his own bed. anyways, we had a great time during that week together. in fact, i think it's safe to say that it was during that week of cohabitation that we inwardly decided to get married. we knew we had a good thing going, and really we could've just kept living that way and become married at that point and we would've been pretty content with that. it was sucky when b moved back to his home again. i'm looking forward to another rendition of b and les's christmas vacation.

this year i'm more aware of winter solstice. i guess it's because i learned on big bang theory (i learn a lot of things from that show actually) that the celebration of jesus's birth was combined with the celebration of winter solstice. for some reason this makes complete sense to me. all the weird christmas traditions that have no connection with a baby in bethlehem, i finally get it! i'm less bothered by our modern christmas variety because i now see where it comes from and how it fits in. it's winter solstice!! i think from now on i'm going to recognize both. i may even say to people "happy winter solstice". and some day we may have a winter solstice tree. b and i have been mentally wrestling with how these traditions fit with our expression of faith, but now i've reconciled myself with them. that's good. i'm pleased.

i'm completely enamoured with edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros. i know i mentioned this last time i wrote, but it's a really big deal for me right now. kind of consuming.

she's got sunset on her breath,
i inhaled it just a little bit.