alligator

i stayed home with a headcold today. feeling all congested and such. i haven't had a cold in a long time so i thought it was reasonable for me to lay low so that it goes away faster. it seems to be working. today has involved a lot of sleeping and lying around. soup and a hot shower. i think i'll be well for work tomorrow.

some matters in life are big and intimidating. i've been doing a lot of reflecting on the future, the present, the past. it sometimes makes me feel too little and i don't like it. in some ways it's nice not having any control over how things play out, but in other ways life feels like a roller coaster that whips me around in a frenzy and leaves me feeling motion sick. after much thought and reflecting i've kind of concluded that the best thing i can do is go limp. you know... being tense makes us more likely to get whiplash. instead i'll just let the chips lie... let them lie where they may. this probably makes no sense. i'm totally combining many different thoughts into one paragraph :p

i think i have some cabin fever. i need some stimulation. this evening we're going to andrew and shannon's place for dinner. we've implemented a twice a month dinner date like we had back when b, shannon and andrew all lived together. i'm looking forward to some external conversation.

so let go,
jump in,
whatcha waiting for?