umbrella

well my new specs have arrived. and they're on my face. as irony would have it i'm now having doubts about whether i like them. i think that's funny considering i've pined for them for almost 2 weeks. but i think i'll just have to get used to them that's all. they were all smuggy at first so i had ill feelings towards them but now their clean so i feel more positive. this has led me to think about all the times i think i really want something, do i actually want them? would that thing, person or whatever make me happier? thankfully my happiness isn't at stake when it comes to my new glasses. the frames look blacker than my other ones. is that possible? more black? hm. again i just need to adjust. i got the anti-reflective lenses, i'm glad or else the picture shown below would be all glarey.


seeing that picture of me makes me think how weird dimples are. like, what's up with dimples?

its funny what beckie mentioned the other day about how she'd like to see me in my workplace. melissa's said that before too. i'm different at work. i'm not silly or dramatic. i'm collected, withdrawn and professional. its strange how that is. that we compartmentlize our lives. i think that's why i like checking my email at work. it combines life and work into one event. i slouch in my chair A LOT, people often comment about me sliding under my desk. i've always expected knickers to reprimand me about it, but she never has. then the other day a lady commented that she can tell that i love my job because of the way i sit in my chair "you're comfortable, at home and relaxed just doing what you love". interesting take on things. i think she's right. i just wish i could wear jeans everyday. and that i didn't have to pack a lunch.

yesterday i cooked the crappiest sheppards pie ever. its completely tasteless and the potatoes are lumpy. don't get me wrong, as much as i boast about being a bad cook, i can usually do a nice sheppards pie.

cooperation killed conflict.