i just got a whopping phone bill of 200 bux. this is not good since i'm already scrimping. apparently phone calls to cellphones in europe are 4 times more expensive to than to landlines. once i retracted my dropped jaw i felt myself getting on the banister of that spiral staircase. i didn't wanna do it, but still ended up curled up in a ball on my bed under a blanket. i'm not sure how i did it, but i managed to pick myself up again and changed out of my work clothes. now i'm feeling all funky and semi-alright. i think what it comes down to for me is mind over matter. that combined with my fighter-instinct to not let anything get the better of me.
i suck at cleaning my windshield with a squeegee. seriously, i'm the only person i know who can make her windshield MORE dirty by trying to clean it. its gross.
i can't believe its friday tomorrow. i'm in denial or something. that really crept up on me.
i love to laugh. i'm often amazed by the connection between my soul and body. my old housemate bonnie used to make me laugh so much that it made my face hurt. it wasn't so much her sense of humour, she's just so expressive and casual. i dunno, she's just bonnie. anyway, i'm astounded by the fact that i can smile uncontrollably. or become anxious to the point of butterflies before my heart even pieces together problem. perhaps my head is always the last to know.
well take what you want from me.
you deserve it all.
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i will help you out with that fonebill my friend...
that is very kind of you, but i don't think i'd be comfortable accepting your money. all things considered.
sometimes my stomach burns. i'm anxious and heart broken today. and it kind of aches all over.
this makes me feel guilty. how can i be hurt over a big nothing when someone else's husband is dying.
i'm lonely and yet just want to be alone.
aw punkin. we all feel that way sometimes. i tell you that not so you can feel unimportant - every person's sadness is relevant. i tell you so you can feel less lonely in your aloneness. you are a part of human being.
nay, i am still gonna contribute. it's partly my fault.
thanks beck. i appreciate that. its true, i know i'm not actually alone, but sometimes people feel lonely for something in particular.
well i won't refuse money but i don't think you have to and you shouldn't feel like you need to. i'm gonna try to talk to the s.o.b.'s at bell and get it sorted out. haha, i don't actually mean that. hahaha, the s.o.b. part that is.
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