obliterated

well... picture this. me gallivanting around the king-of-towns trying to get the right RAM and trying to get it installed. i ended up in amherstview at the laird's new place, where together, brandon and i figured out the inner workings of my imac. well it was mostly brandon but i watched and now consider myself a pro. i like how we vacuumed out all the dust :D so, that being said, i have now increased the RAM on my computer by 400%. unfortunately, the difference isn't THAT noticable, which is a little disappointing. i hoped it would blow my sox off! regardless, i now have my entire CS2 software happily installed. all is good. and legit.

ooh, my family just arrived to meet the kitties. brb.

well, both honey and pekoe were quite shy with the kids and spent most of their time hiding. i was disappointed that they'd react that way, i'm not a fan of recluse kitties. but they're not usually like that, so hopefully they were just overwhelmed by having two loud kids around.

i spent the evening clearing off my desk, going thru drawers, hanging pictures. basically doing things around the house that i've been putting off. it was good, got me out of a funk. this afternoon i felt kind of lost, i didn't know what to do with myself. i went to melinda's for a bit and felt like a zombie. she even commented on my comatose state. so i'm glad i was able to muster my ambition and actually be productive. as i putsied, i got thinking about starting over. about how it would be to start my life over – in the exact same situation – but knowing what i know now. how different would it be. i would experience every moment with greater understanding, i would breathe deep the things i now cherish. oh how i wish we wouldn't take for granted what we have. what we don't have.

kevin and amy from downstairs are away for the weekend. i love it when they're not here. it feels like i'm home alone. i can play my music loud and hammer into the walls late into the evening without caution. it's nice.

you are someone else,
i am still right here.