i've deemed my cube "the cube of boredom".
i'm doing well though, i've had a semi-relaxing evening, it still feels quite early. i've been a little tired today though, so i'm gonna try and hit the hay early.
a conversation with beckie got me thinking about the female ego. we hear a lot about the male ego, but what about the female ego?!?! i wonder what would be identified as the female ego. hm, i wonder if we're even allowed to have egos. the WORD 'ego' even sounds masculine.
honey and pekoe had their first appointment at the vet tonight. i really like my vet, she's super nice and was so excited when she saw i was booked for an appointment. she felt really bad for me when we had to put fru down. she raved about these two and i felt very proud of them. honey weights 1.9 kg and pekoe weights 2.4 kg – so they ARE significantly different sizes. it turns out that they both have fleas AND ear mites. ugh. and i have some medication i have to rub into honey's eyes for the next 10 days because of the pus. ugh again.
so BASICALLY i'm really poor right now, and i presume i'm about to get poorer. BUT i'm spending barely anything for the next while, that should compensate. but whatever, i'll be fine. what's so great about money anyway?? nothing. besides, i take pleasure in the challenge of stretching my money. like this week i only spent $19 on groceries! and believe you me, i eat pretty well! and really... i usually don't have much food anyway. melissa commented last week that my fridge was the fullest she's ever seen it. hahaha.
i'm feeling pretty content. i like how my life has stabilized and so far i'm not even itching for some drama. that may make for a dull pspd, but no doubt some excitement will spring up at some point. i love that in my head i see myself as the captain of this massive ship and i'm standing at the bow with a pirate hat and a telescope ready to yell "land ho!" what's the connection? well, the waves of my life have just calmed a little. perhaps we're just in the eye of the storm...
this is a fairly long entry, i wonder why it still feels like i've said nothing. except that pirate part – that was GOLD!
i could take away the shaking knees,
and i could give you all the olive trees.
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EXCUSE ME?!
For damn sure we are allowed to have egos! What the heck?!
Here is my take on the female ego. I'll define it by coming around from the side: anything threatening to our sense of womanhood is threatening to the female ego.
There's probably a better way to understand it. I'll report back if I get it.
i meant "allowed".
ok, so that just begs the question "what is my sense of womanhood?" hm. can you explain THAT future too??
oh geeze les...i'll get back to you
ok, i thought about it.
your sense of womanhood is how you perceive yourself, as a woman, right?
the female ego says, I am a woman, and this is what I choose.
hahahha.... just read your story from yesterday!!!!
you mean i choose to be a woman? that's madness! or... do you mean "i'm a woman and i choose [blank]"
i think our female ego is also connected to our self-worth. actually, we often hear about a girls "self-esteem" maybe that's the equivalent to the male ego.
haha melissa, i can totally hear your giggle in my head. you're so funny.
nah, self-esteem is different than female ego. and i meant i am a woman and i choose [...]. although now we know that some people do indeed "choose" to be women.
actually, now you mention it, i think i choose to be a woman when i can't change it. sort of like how i choose to be on a man-fast when there are no men around. perspective.
hahaha. yes some people DO choose to be a woman.
i don't think i choose to be a woman. but i choose to embrace being a woman. i love it. i love being curvy and delicate. i love being emotional and imaginative.
t'is great to be a girl :D
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