chronic

it feels like i pulled a muscle in my neck or something :S

there are moments like this one, where i wish i could just sit and listen. i feel a need to hear from other people. although, i'm not certain i'd be able to absorb any info at the moment. i feel pretty tired and ready for bed.

it seems as though winter has passed us by. i still think it'll snow in april, but it definitely seems as though the worst is behind us. it almost feels like we got off easy this year. although, i'm not complaining. i enjoyed my lunchtime walk, and walking home from the cas's place after the movies. i like the dark. walking in the dark. driving in the dark. it's almost hypnotic.

i have this feeling like my life is a smorgasbord right now. i'm feeling a little bit of everything. i kind of like it and kind of don't. i like the moments when i'm clearly defined. feeling everything at once can be confusing. i think i should really go to bed. i need some rest. sleep might reduce this feeling of sensory overload.

smiles.

i'm sick of spending these lonely nights training myself not to care.