apples

sex and the city is a very clever show. it's insightful and candid, which makes it refreshing. this evening, the show ended with a fantastic line "sometimes when we get what we need, we don't need it anymore". so true. often people just need a little space, and when they get it, they don't feel like they need it anymore. sometimes we fight for freedom in our lives, but once we attain it, we don't require it as much. sometimes we feel a need to find out who we are, and once we've done that, we don't feel that urgency. i don't think it's just a question of wanting what we can't have, it's probably much more about getting our needs met. it makes so much sense now. it's as simple as needing an oven, we need an oven until we get one, then we simply have one, and use it, it's integrated into our lives. technically we still NEED it, but we aren't IN need, we don't long for it, or feel that need in a palpable way. i suspect that my need for travel will diminish once i get to travel freely (without restrictions or the obligation to return to work).

i heard another great line on sex and the city the other day... "i've been rejected by someone i wasn't interested in. i HATE it when that happens". perfect. i've SO felt like that.

i always perceived it as judgment. i finally understand that it's not.

after seven days
he was quite tired so God said:
"let there be a day
just for picnics, with wine and bread"