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its 8:32 a.m. on a sunday morning. i can't sleep. i woke up at 6 starving. i tried to ignore it. then i tried drinking some juice. it didn't subside. i heard irina come home from the studio. still couldn't sleep. got up. had some breakfast. read my bible. did a crossword puzzle. and now its 8:33. i have 2 and a half hours until church. what am i gonna do to kill the time? i'm so bored. oohhh, maybe i'll watch some homestar runner.... ok i'm back. that successfully killed 50 minutes. awesome.

i'm going to my mom's for sunday lunch today. Mmm, i hope she makes a pork roast today. her cousin marian is visting from winnipeg. she's my mom's only relative in canada. i really like my aunt marian, she's really fun and spunkey. she reminds me of my cousin pam. its interesting to me that she and my mom came here a year apart and yet aunt marian still has an accent and my mom doesn't. they say if you marry a canadian you're more likely to loose your accent than if you move here with your partner. but aunt marian married a canadian too. so i don't know. i had dinner with them on thursday. i was feeling all stressed and upset about the house at work so i called mom to see if i could stop by to talk on the way home. when i got there i ran into her arms and burst into tears. all i could think is "its ok to still need your mom when you're 25". she said she still needs her mom sometimes too.

tonight is the last living room session until the new year. but we're gonna have a living room christmas party here at our house this coming saturday. it should be fun. i'm looking forward to it. although, after i sent out the invitations via email only like 2 people rsvped and i was thinking "uh-oh, apparently there'll just be 4 of us. i guess i'll have to learn how to play eurche." but thankfully more people have emailed me back, and i'm sure there's more who just haven't gotten around to it. when i first thought up this idea it was gonna be on either the 17th or 18th, and since my birthday is the 17th i thought "well i guess i'll get a birthday cake and celebrate my birthday at the same time." but several people were all like "oh that's too late for the student" and secretly i'm like "ooh big woop! not everything revolves around the students!!" argh! sorry that's rude of me. meghan, i'm sorry, i didn't mean you of course. but seriously i have such a love/hate relationship with the notion of the students. like i can't find a fricking seat at indigo because they're all there studying. i have to go earlier to church to find a spot. i remember biking through campus in september heading to murney's tower to read and thinking "oh no! we're being infected again!!" and on the flip side, downtown kingston wouldn't be thriving if it wasn't for the student population and its nice having such a high percentage of young people around. i think my main beef is that when i finished school it hit me that there's so much more to life than being a student, but unfortunately students are unaware of that and seem to think life revolves around their school and their lives. now i feel i need to say my peace... its nothing against anyone in particular, its more a mentality that seems bred into students by some unknown source.

ah, its now 9:50. not bad. i should go get ready. i bet i'll be late...