tzar

i've had a pretty good and predictable day. i have to laugh because it was just exactly what i would have expected, and i like that. its not that i like predictability, or having plans (although there are times when i relish those things), its just it unraveled just as i had hoped it might.

it was nice getting together at rhonda's new house with the girls for a movie. i think we all felt so-so about the movie, but being together was nice.

have i told you about my plan to keep myself in-check? i can't remember if i've shared this or not so please forgive me if i have. i know i once wrote a big blurb about this and then deleted it. i do that pretty often, so i just can't remember if i deleted the whole blurb or just edited it. well anyways, my plan is... anything i wouldn't have the balls to say to someones face i can't say it in an email. things like "i have a crush on you" or "you're a jerk". ya, things that the other person doesn't really need to know because 5 minutes later i'll have changed my mind about sharing and once its out-there it can't be retracted. ya, i've learned this the hard way. but its a pretty good rule of thumb, it makes you question whether your computer is giving you false confidence. its a good filter. i think its working for me, well when i remember. sometimes i come up with ways of rationalizing why its ok to say something in an email. the problem is i usually regret it anyways, so i should have checked it against my plum line first. hmmm.

it wouldn't come out right, it just came out all wrong.