obviously it's difficult for me to explain what's going on inside my head/being when i myself don't have a firm grasp of it. but somehow, defining myself as an introvert has really helped me see myself in focus – recognizing a lot of my behaviour (past & present) to be the result of my introverted nature. anyways, today i realized the reason why i celebrate doing new things or hard things so much is because the fact that i've done anything is a huge achievement. i LOVE doing things, but am held back by my reserved side. there are so many thing i wish i've done differently in my life that now i'm trying to live in such a way that i don't regret anything. for example, this afternoon i went to see "anne & gilbert" by myself to a matinee show because i couldn't find anyone to go with. i missed seeing that play last year, and i'd be damned if i'd let myself miss out because i didn't have a comrade to go with. it was ok, the role of gilbert was weak, but i had a really good seat and i'm proud of myself for going and for having a nice time. yay for les! maybe i'm babystepping my way to boldness. today the grand theatre, tomorrow the world :p
someone told me the other day "oh, you're such a funny girl", but i can't peg down what kind of funny i am! i can get some good laughs out of people, but it's usually the result of my satirical theatrics. my overdramatics or utter randomness. but regardless, i don't suppose it matters that i'm not your typical joke-cracking girl with a quick comeback or witty anedote. i like getting people to laugh at me, i enjoy it a great deal.
faith does not grow in a house of certainty.
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Those are huge baby steps!!! So good for you!!
good work les! i love going to movies by myself but i didn't know that until after the first time... i've never seen a play by myself but i'd really like to see anne and gilbert. i didn't know it was running in kingston.
speaking of loving to do things, but being held back by your reserved side, i can relate. but i'm proud to say that last night i achieved a milestone: first midnight skinny-dip! i was so thrilled and excited and proud of myself for finally doing it! of course now it will become an annual event.
i'm proud of you for climbing mountains, going to plays, and moving outside of your comfort zone.
thanks girls!
yup, it played last year in gan during the renos at the grand theatre.
congrats on the skinny dipping! it's funny huh? but not unsimilar to taking a bath. or at least that's what i found. but it's fun to flirt with danger :)
ah, yes... it IS fun to flirt with danger. thanks!
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