speedo

i start back at work tomorrow. i feel as though i'm embarking on a new journey. i want more balance in my life, i also want to just live without strife, or exhausting efforts. things are going to be different. there are some things from my regular life that i don't want to do anymore, i'm dropping them cold-turkey: guilt, obligation, life-juggling, exhaustion, borrowing worries.

i'm in this weird mood today. i woke-up feeling totally not yet fully slept, then went to church semi-incapacitated. just ask rach. however, this afternoon, i hopped on my eliptical and did an awesome complete work-out for about an hour. i'd forgotten how euphoric a workout can be. this is going to be a part of my new life set-up. i want more space in my life. i want some breathing room. i want structure and boundaries. i want to say no and that to be ok. i want a new kind of courage and peace of mind. i won't be manipulated anymore, i am my own person. i belong to me.

i'm excited about this. i'm really very happy actually :) ok, well... hi-five les! everything's going to be better than ok. it's just yet another molehill to conquer.

this is shannon and beckie at the festival yesterday. beck is totally exhausted and freezing cold but i made her sit up so i could take this pictures. we had a really nice time.

like a child, we get hungry and restless and wicked and wild.