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shannon is so great.
i'm so fortunate to have such great friends.
and affirming friends.

i struggle with feeling that i'm mediocre at everything. it came out in my writing at storytellers last night. immediately everyone contradicted me, and showered me with love and affirmation. bren emailed me later and told me that there's nothing mediocre about me. i thought about it and concluded that i set my standards too high and am too hard on myself. this evening when shannon was over, i told her the saga of my early days – shan is a great participant in my storytelling – and retelling that tale reminded me of all that i've overcome. how much healing i've experienced, and it made me think that perhaps i'm much more extraordinary than i thought. i don't dwell in my past very much, i'm not proud of it. but it's so long ago that it's barely a blip on my radar and that makes me happy.

i showed her the beginnings of my post secret postcards. they made her laugh and that made me happy. i'm very excited about this undertaking. i don't suppose any of them will actually be selected, but i like sending things out into the great unknown. and as far as i know i'm the first person i know to submit something.

frank taught me how to de-ice my windshield using a bucket of hot-water.

i love that shannon's dad didn't believe her when she told him i was 29 :)

oh my goodness. i totally need to go to bed. i've been the WORST getter-upper all week. it sux.

there i knew it would be alright,
that everything would be alright.