i really enjoyed my winter vacation. i decided beforehand that i wanted to have an introverted holiday, and i succeeded. b and i slept late each day, watched movies and the band of brothers mini series. i cooked and baked. i didn't work out. we spent time with our families, including taking my niece and nephews to chuck-e-cheese. today we cleaned the apartment, got organized, purged some stuff, and put photos in albums and frames. we've also been taking a lot about the future. about this next year, what it will look like and what direction b should go in. we're both feeling encouraged and that we've finally caught the scent and are on the right track.
i told b tonight that i wish i was always this relaxed. work and routine brings an element of stress and pressure to my life that i don't like. i'm happier and far more chilled when rested. nothing is a chore or obligation. i'm not grumpy or anxious. i wonder how i can learn to infuse my regular life with this sense of peace. because i want to be peaceful.
i should get going. tonight i sleep instead of rest. i'll dream instead of recharge. i'm already completely full. it's the new year, and it is good.
so this is the new year and i have no resolutions
for self assigned penance,
for problems with easy solutions.
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