Friday, January 21, 2011

ticket

so guess what?? i found my missing pencil :S
someone didn't walk away with it after all. i don't know where it was hiding but yesterday i suddenly found it in my hand. i must have grabbed the closest pencil and didn't realize it was the one i'd lost in action. it's my favourite. it only has 3 sides instead of 6 so it fits so wonderfully in my fingers. and the paint finish is just the right amount of smooth. there's not a lot that my predecessor taught me, but she did tell me "when you find a pen that you like, take a whole box and keep it in your desk. otherwise they won't be there when you need another one". i've implimented this practise to much success, which is why i'm less disturbed when a pen goes missing because i have a stash of the exact same ones. i should've done the same with this type of pencils.

on my way into work this morning i was thinking about how today started so much better than yesterday. i'm kind of struck by how things can change from one day to the next.

b and i are short on money at the moment. lots of non-routine expenses coming up all at once. it won't take long to get back on track, but in the meantime we're having to be stingy and creative with our activities. it's kind of fun - the being creative part. i think occasional stinginess is good for the soul. it teaches balance and resourcefulness. one learns to not be wasteful, thoughtless, or excessive. i like that. i think the same prinicpals transfer into weight loss. eating well requires intention and attention (same goes for healthy spending). i feel like i'm currently forming new processing patterns in my brain and when i do get down to the weight/size i'd like to be the way i approach food will remain healthy. i'm having one of those significant experiences that change the way i live moving forward. similar to the experience i had in my early 20s with paying bills and managing money.
 
been looking for peace but they're bringing you war.

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