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the drive into work this morning was lovely. indeed a winter wonderland. the snow shimmered on the mounds and fields. i drove behind this really terrible driver. it was pretty funny. clearly they were not from kingston, because the drove on the soft-shoulder on taylor-kidd instead of on the road. the snow plow had cleared the shoulder, and it seems the driver thought it was a lane. so there were 3 of us driving on the road, and one car driving on the curb.

well, this is week two of b working full time and nights, and so far it's working out pretty well. he's more tired this week than last, but other than that it's good. my separation anxiety seems to be improving. perhaps it was that i was rarely alone anymore that it felt weird, and so now that i'm getting used to it again i'm more comfortable.

i've developed a dislike for sarcasm - a sensitivity to the sting of a bitter jibe. if the person is clearly joking or counters the comment immediately i'm totally ok with it, because i do have a sense of humour. but in general i find sarcasm just mean-spirited, and don't like it. it hurts my feelings, and i can't understand why someone would purposely be hurtful. a lot of people hide behind the guise of sarcasm, but it doesn't make their cruelty ok. they joke but they actually mean what they say. i find it especially hard to swallow when i'm saying something serious or important to me, and i get interrupted with petty comments. i guess i just feel that at 31, i don't appreciate bullying, and see it as such. it seems low-brow and unclever. if the person had to be clever and funny that would be much harder. teasing is different. i like teasing, teasing i can handle, and think it's fun :)

still the searcher must ride the dark horse.