well this week is looking uber busy, especially this evening. so i thought to optimize my time i'd take a ten minute break at work to write today's entry.
as usual, i have much on my mind. one thing i've been pondering has been... considering women (and i realize this is a generalization) tend not to be very rational, under the right circumstances they can rationalize ANYTHING. very interesting. i think i'd like to be more like a man and learn to take everything at face value and not sit around with my friends and analyze the meaning of "hi lesley". i don't know, that's just me. or the NEW me.
sometimes i lonely for people i've never met.
sometimes i'm homesick for places i've never been.
sometimes, inspite the fact that i have a really great community around me, and really great friends, i still feel like i don't belong. where to do i fit?
have you ever had a conversation with someone that was kind of dry and dull until a certain point when you open up and finally talk about what's really on your mind? i've really been noticing that lately. i can tell when people are holding back and not sharing what's bothering them and i really feel for them. i think "if you'd just talk to me about what's on your mind then you'd feel much better and i would be relieved that we can have a REAL conversation". certain walls need to be shattered in order to live freely.
i don't feel so far away from you lately.
2 comments:
Hmmm, that's very deep. I enjoyed our deepness in conversation on Thursday last week. Let's do it again soon! laney
i have a lot of time to think. sometimes that's not good.
yes, we'll need to make an unoffical date sometime, until then how about this thursday at boob group?? i promise that i'll be on time, or at least i'll try. no, wait, i've got to be on time since i'm leading!! ahahaa
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