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today has been a real jumble of moods. its been almost difficult, because i don't even know what i think or how i feel about my life. its like i'm looking through a kaledioscope, its confusing.

i feel pretty exhausted. i think i'd gotten burnt out and i'm still recovering from that. may this be a lesson to me. i was thinking today that every experience i have changes me somehow. and i think taking on too much stuff and getting burnt out has taught me my limitations. good to know. i feel as though i'm being refined. each day i'm slightly different than the person i was yesterday. i'm like water, constantly changing shape and yet my substance is the same.

i'm sure some of you have heard me talk about this before, but my theory is: i'm exactly the same person as i was when i was 6 years old. i'm still this kid in my head and who i am is no different. my circumstances change. my reactions and my views change, but i am unchanged and will remain unchanged. i hope i'm explaining myself clearly.

i've been feeling really shy lately, just the last couple days. actually maybe since i got sick last week & burnt out. i sure hope my outgoing side comes back. i just need to continue lying low and recoupe. i'm not entirely sure if its shyness exactly, i just feel like i don't have anything interesting to say.

i really enjoyed melinda's show today on cfrc. it was really funny because she would make these comments and they were like inside jokes between me and her. i was cracking up in my cube as i listened.

same old thing but i don't know which way to go.