itchy

ahh... sigh. what a relief! i've finally cleaned my room. it was an utter disaster since last saturday when i was rumaging thru my drawers trying to decide what to wear to fake prom. both melinda and irina were saying "i don't know how you can be in here with such a mess". but i made sure to leave it until i had time and didn't clean it when i stayed home sick that day. i needed to recoup.

this morning i woke up feeling like i needed some "me time" so i took myself on a date. with myself :) we went to... oh that just makes me sounds insane. i went to morrisons for breakfast and then went to the sleepless goat for a pot of tea. i also stalked an apartment i'm interested in renting in may.

so caleb is turning out to look exactly like me. its really interesting. joy is constantly startled when she catches glimpses of him from certain angles and is blown away by the resemblance. this is a very unusal experience for me, for once instead of being told "oh you have mcknight eyes" or "you have your uncle's nose", its now "caleb's nose is just like yours!!" i like it. we've always been very detached from the mcknights, and in many ways i can understand how it would feel to be adopted because my mom and joy look very much a like and have the same hands & feet, i never saw how i fit into the family tree. it wasn't until i was 18 that i realized that i wasn't some freak with an unusually large gap in her toes – all my mcknight cousins have that too! really i bet caleb is going to look a lot like my dad. but we don't have any pics of him younger than 15ish so we have nothing to compare him to. my baby pics look identical to cabe.

i can see the future now but only when i blink.