ashton

hey!! sorry i didn't write last night. i got home really late then just flopped on my bed with the lights still on and my music still playing.

i've been thinking about this whole retiring at 2045 thing. it completely blows my mind. i can't possibily imagine how my life will have unravelled by then that's 40 frickin years away! imagine all that i'll have accumulated by then. if you think about it... each time i move i have more "stuff", true eventually i'll get rid of stuff as i get more stuff, but life experiences aren't the same way. i will develop more friends, more family and more experiences. it'll be insane. when i imagine myself at 65 its like that version of me knows everything i want to know.... how its all gonna turn out. it amazes me.

so beckie just came over and i helped her dye her hair purple. we did streaks. then i decided to do a purple streak in my hair. i used to streak my hair all the time (like rogue from x-men), but now that i think of it, i don't think i've done it since i cut my hair and have grown it back. soo, i think i really like it. i've never done purple before. it's a nice contrast with the current colour of my hair which still has some red in it from my last semi-permanate.

i think i should really get some groceries today. i feel bad because beckie had to bring some food over with her because i don't have anything. its getting a little annoying. so we had some rye bread and some scrambled eggs. it was really nice and simple. i should do that more often. i somehow have it hammered into my head that a nice meal needs to contain meat and potatoes, its my british heritage.

i was saying to beckie today that i'm surprised because in someways i'm really easy-going and in other ways i'm very intense (example: i'm not worried about getting dye on my forehead) she pointed out that its that my priorities are different than other people, not the amount i care. very interesting observation.

oh, one more thing... i know it may be a little late because she's probably already started her 24 hour trip, but "bon voyage joanna!"

i think she knows,
and i know it shows,
that i'm confused all the time.