Wednesday, July 12, 2006

maxwell

what's in a name?
i'm very intrigued by this. names have a mysterious aura. there's a man at my work who is having a sex change and is now a woman (at least is in female regalia). i'm having a hard time remembering that his name is now heather and not doug. why is that? its just a word! you'd think it wouldn't be THAT difficult! what is it that compells me to instinctively call someone "blah"? its the same instinct that makes us turn our heads when we hear someone say our name. names are weird.

so i've been thinking today about regrets and decisions. vinc' said something yesterday about owning our decisions. it was very thought provoking, a very new concept to me. basically he was saying that even if his trip here turned out to be a disaster it was still his decision to come and it was the right decision at the time. hmmm, very interesting. i can't help but think of my mom and how she laments living in canada while her family is in the u.k. and how crappy her life has been since she married my dad and yada, yada, yada. this totally changes my perceptions about some of my past experiences. they were MY decisions, no one elses. i live with the results, and that's OK! hmm, i really like that.

i need someone to look after fru while i'm gone. is anyone available to come by every other day (or every day) to top up his food and scoop the litter? you can play with him too if you'd like, he's good at playing fetch!

sometimes when the damage is done there's no repairing it. i'd say more times than not. we try to justify things and make-believe that it'll be alright if we just ignore it enough, but that's stupid. i know a girl who just spontaneously married an asshole who treats her like crap and has dumped her possibly 2 dozen times. honestly, there's a difference between moving on and moving forward.

i'm the king of the castle,
you're the dirty rascal.

4 comments:

Rachel said...

When we chose our girls' names we put a lot of thought into it. We chose first and middle names whose meanings worked together and wrote blessings for them based on those meanings. It is amazing to me how much their personalities relfect the meanings of their names and how the blessings we spoke over them are being realized.

I think there is more to a name than just the sound of the word.

yelsel said...

my sister's name is joy and people are always saying to my mom "your daughter really suits her name". i think you're probably right about that. but what do i do to wrap my brain about the heather-doug situation?? tricky. maybe seeing him dressed as a woman will help, as i haven't yet seen him in his new attire.

Rachel said...

I have no advice about Heather-Doug. I have never known a person who had a sex change. I can see how it'd be wierd.

yelsel said...

totally weird! this is a first for me too!