Friday, July 11, 2008

jump

sometimes i just need a reality check to bring myself back down to earth. to make contact with the known world, and be reminded that i'm on the right track.

i'm so relieved. i feel like everything has become clear in my mind in a way i've never felt before. i honestly think feeling good about something is a good sign. and having a bad feeling about something is a clear indication. peace of mind is a powerful thing. i will heed those warnings, i will sit up and take notice.

i'm becoming a tiny bit obsessed with painting my nails. which is bizarre, because before baffin i hadn't painted my fingernails in about 10 years! the weird thing is that i also kind of hate it. i see my fingers and find them creepy. and yet i'm compelled. i'm gonna need more colours.

i provide too much damage control. i'm so overly careful that i try putting out the fire before it gets started. that's illogical.

some day. this day.

i used a nail file on my tooth today, to help smooth out my filling. it KIND OF worked.

down beneath the impossible pain of our history.

3 comments:

Aphra said...

I see you are launching a new plane. But the blog post about the car has not been seen yet :) How do I know how to look for you on the street?

yelsel said...

aphra... i don't understand what you're talking about :S

1) you mean at work? it isn't really a new plane. they've been talking about it for two or three years. but good nonetheless.

2) entry about the car? you mean my new car? i wrote an entry about my new car, i included a picture and everything!

i'm so confused.

Aphra said...

Hmm. I read every entry and did not see #2. I will go and look now!