toothy

despite what we thought, you actually made an impression on me. a greater one than we realized. i can feel it in your absence – like a hand-print in wet cement.

i'm slowly adjusting to my dreadlocks. i think they're a bigger adjustment for me than they are for the people who have to look at me. i'm accustomed to seeing myself with very smooth and silky hair, this new do is quite foreign. but i like it, i like the different ways of wearing it. right now it's pulled back into a high ponytail, and i must admit it really does suit me – even more than my natural hair-style. i don't expect it will be an easy sell at work tomorrow, my job was the biggest barrier for me to overcome in my decision to get dreads. but i've gotten over it, it's just the initial reaction that i'm dreading (haha, dreading). my family i'm not concerned about, they're less opinionated and know me better. my dad told me the other day that he approached a woman at the library and said "by any chance are you an artist?" and she said "as a matter of fact, i am! why do you ask?" he told her "you look like an artist. my daughter is the same way". i don't expect my workplace to find it as charming. BUT they might surprise me. i know the most significant misconception (hygiene) will be an important one to clear up. so let me tell you also, yes i will continue to wash my hair as regularly as before, i just have to use a different kind of shampoo and no conditioner. the shampoo is cool, it's just a bar and i rub it all over my head, i like it a lot. so far reception to my hair has been very positive, but i'm sure all those who hate it just keep their mouths shut. hopefully my colleagues will have the same sense to remain silent.

oddly enough, the more time passes the more it feels like that never happened. it was just a dream.

there's a lot i want to say. but am finding they are things reserved for one person and not for everyone. sometimes we don't get the opportunity.

celebrate your dreams when you are away.