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i think some day i'll get a motorcycle license and buy myself a vespa. ya, that'll be cool. not anytime soon. maybe in 10 or 20 years. it'll be a nice change i think.

my mom told me today she's proud of me. which is really nice to hear. as much as i'm not a "people pleaser" (i'm not motivated by a need for others approval) i AM pleased when what i do pleases people. and the fact that my mom is proud of me marks a new phase of our relationship. i think she finally "gets" me. which is awesome!!

i told joy today about matt's engagement. she didn't seem as thrilled as me, her response was literally "well... i guess that was inevitable". and i have to say, if i ever get engaged i'd like people's reaction to not be disappointment. it was interesting talking to joy because she seemed to want to make sure that i was ok with matt getting married. i was telling her "you know... i realized when i was talking to him i wasn't even an ounce jealous. it really doesn't bother me at all!!" you'd think finding out a man i dated for 3 years, and have continued to consider as one of my best friends, is getting married it might cause some sting but it really doesn't!! matt IS very special to me, i mentioned that yesterday, and i love him very much, but as my brother and i'm ecstatic for him. it just goes to show how much i've changed. i CAN do this. and i can do it well too! and to all the people who think i need to "find a man" - you really don't know what you're talking about. its like telling a recovering alcoholic "you need a drink".

he ran a marathon
he didn't quite finish