well its late in the evening on a monday. i'd say my day, no scratch that, my work day was a... 5 and my regular day was a... 7. i was going a little looney in my cube, but had enough things to keep me busy that it turned out ok, mostly it was frustrating because i was working with 5 files each weighing over 1 gb a piece and it took FOREVER to render any changes or save each file.
after work i went to the YMCA. it was amusing because my mom just got a membership and as i did weights i could see her walking on the treadmill. she was just a strolling. i have to admit she looked pretty cute and out of place. its interesting that when she first told joy that she got a membership she said "did you check with les to see if she was ok with that?" i would have had an issue with that before because the Y was my sanctuary where i didn't know anyone and felt i got some peace and quiet. but i guess now the maxipad is my castle, so i don't feel so protective of the Y. anyway, when i saw her it made me smile and as i walked toward her, i made eye contact with this one guy who assumed i was smiling at him. it was little awkward.
i've been experiencing a lot of anxiety about my up coming trip to kenya. i get waves of fear. its scary. but i think i got some perspective today when it dawned on me "you're just going for a 2 week vacation, you're not moving there!!" phew. on top of all the uncertainty of it all, i think i might get homesick. that would suck. if i was going with a friend then i think it would be different, but ya. i like it when i'm in the moment. when there's no place i'd rather be than where i am. i hope that's what happens. but i'll miss you guys. in some ways its easier not having friends because you have no one to miss. although its crappy when you return and there's no one to welcome you home.here's a pic of me, irina and melinda sleeping on my bed. actually, i think i was the only one actually sleeping. sometimes i get dozey when i watch movies. well melinda leaves the country tomorrow. farewell mindy! we're all routing for you :) you will be missed and thought of often.
oh i loved you.
i guess i still do.
6 comments:
Heya Les,
I'm sure you'll have a blast in Kenya!! Maybe next time I'll go with ya (no really!)!
Send my regards to Mel too!
good on you for recognizing your fear, and sharing it, and remembering it's only for two weeks.... love ya.
some "wisdom" for you....
Courage is not the lack of fear but the ability to face it."
---- Lt. John B. Putnam Jr. (1921-1944)
"Fear makes the wolf bigger than he is."
---- German Proverb
"- Tush! Tush! Fear little boys with bugs."
---- Will - The Taming of the Shrew
you'll be fine and great - there will be so much new stuff to see, you won't have time to get really homesick. prolly a few twings though... I think that always happens when you see the Strange.
when do you go again?
you guys are super. i much appreciate your encouragement.
i go on october 9 and arrive back on october 23. mark your calendars!
hahahha. so funny. thanks alison!
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