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dave ferrence and i have been having a debate about communism over the past few days. it largely focuses on whether cuba is truly communist or repressed under a dictator. i remember growing up watching amercian television being fed that communisum is bad, and often hearing the term "commy" being used as a derogatory term. but the more i've learned, the more i think i'm a communist deep down inside. as we talked today dave told he that he once knew a communist and this fellow reminded him of a "... what's that name... evangelical christian" i said "i'm an evangelical christian", "oh" he said and kept talking about how similar christianity is to communism. i agreed and told him how i think that's why i'm secretly a communist deep down.

now... back to the "i'm an evangelical christian" comment. i have to admit, i hate the response i get from people when i tell them that. there's such a negative stigma around it. i think that's too bad. partly because i just see myself as a regular person who believes in God. anyway, its interesting that i find it such an awkward thing to tell a person because when they know that about me its a bit of a relief! i feel like "there, that's out of the bag. now i can be myself". i think of my friend who on the first time we hung out she told me point blank "i'm an atheist" i've often thought of that and wondered why she felt a need to tell me that, but its probably the same for her, she feels more herself when people understand that about her.

my mom once dated a communist. this intrigued me. in part because i'm always curious about my mom's life before me and my sister, but also because i didn't know much about communism back then (and still don't quite frankly, just the main theory behind it). when i asked her what he was like, she said "well, he had a beard..." and that's really all she told me. hahahaha, that's so funny. my mom really likes facial hair, and long hair actually. sarah told me recently that the older women get the hairier they like their men. i believe that. i like a good scum-beard.

i love how communism lead to scum-beards in this entry. but why shouldn't it?

there's a mysterious bike that's been abandoned outside my house.

lead me to water lord, I sure am thirsty.