???

i don't know what to say.
i've been doing a lot of talking today.
both via email and in person.
its nice actually.

the most eventful part of the day was when rhonda's dog peed on the couch. i was the only witness and yet couldn't find words but instead just called out random sounds and flung my arms around.

i feel like i'm being stretched too thin these days. its not that i over commit myself or anything. i'm just not living a very well balanced life. i think its because i'm moody. sometimes i'm lonely and other times i just want to be alone and recharge. i feel like i haven't recharged to max in a number of weeks.

i read a quote today from sarah plain and tall that said "no matter where you go, you will always miss something". i think that's so true. it got me thinking about "the grass is always greener on the other side". every situation will have a downside. i have no delusions about that. none. its just our nature as people.

throw away my misery,
it never meant that much to me.