tenacious

:D

in keeping with my new monday evening routine... i just watched elizabethtown. i'd forgotten how much i love that movie. well i knew in my head that i really liked it, but had forgotten my emotional reaction to it. it tugs at me, with familiarity and ludicrousness. it make me laugh and think "yup, that's about right". so funny. as i watched it, i remembered that one of my first blog entries was about elizabethtown. at least i'm consistent.

last night at living room we got talking about how we're often the least patient with the people most important to us. i know i'm completely guilty of treating my family really badly (not in recent years, thankfully). my mom and i have talked before about couples or families who are really kind to each other, extremely polite, and how odd we found that. but we're starting to think they might be right and we're wrong. if we care about someone we SHOULD treat them with respect. from time to time she'll tell me "i would have done things differently with your father". you might think that's inappropriate of her, but its not. i need to know that what i observed as a kid was not the way to go. i appreciate her humbleness in admitting her mistakes. there's a couple i know (a REALLY GREAT couple), who i regularly see the girl cutting down the guy. it really bothers me, i want to grab her and say "ADORE HIM!! we ALL know he's nutty and we love that about him! you should too!" but i won't. i'll refrain myself. i just hope she comes to see it herself. i'm like that, i'm not so good at confronting people, i tend to let them fall into ravines, thinking "well that's what they wanted to do...." its a poor excuse. i wouldn't want my friends to watch me fall into a ravine. but in my experience, people don't like to be reprimanded, even if it's done with love. i know that's totally true of me, my sister is the ONLY one who gets away with it.

you're more brave than you give yourself credit for.

well its just after 9. i should hurry if i'm gonna get some valentine cards made. i like when i make dinner and its so good that it leaves me looking forward to eating the leftovers for lunch the next day. yum.

can you be everything i need you to be?
can you protect me as a daughter?
can you love me like a father?