shampoo

i seriously damaged my knee/leg at the gas station today walking in to some metal pole thing. i think the bone is bruised. it made yoga class quite difficult at times. i walked to the Y this evening, and walked home afterwards. i don't walk to enough places. i liked walking down the stairs and out the door, down the road and around the corner. it's amazing to think how far walking can take us if we just keep going. i didn't read, i didn't listen to my ipod. just walked and observed and listened to the sound of the wind in the leaves. beautiful.

tomorrow after work i'm motoring to montreal to spend canada day with david. i like this concept of having a weekend in the middle of the week. i'm super thrilled because i LOVE montreal, and i'm mildly crazy about david too. i suspect that my workday will be very dreary and dull because i'll be anxious to hit the road. we have reservations at the blind restaurant at 9. i should go pack and get into bed. i was watching the tv today (actually, i'm re-watching the flight of the conchords) and was reminded of how much i love getting bed when i'm not completely exhausted or in a rush because i'm late.

if i could just connect all these dots,
the truth would tumble like a cynic vexed by love.

spiderweb

several summers ago, when i fell in love with watermelons, i vowed to never try carrying one home from the grocery store ever again. in spite of that, i tried several more times, until i came to accept that it was too much for me. i made a little compromise today. i took a super long bike ride (in the rain unfortunately, but it was ok) with my knapsack, stopping at no frills on the way back, and bought a watermelon. it was still really heavy, but manageable. it thru off my balance a little. in a way, i feel like it prepared me some for my heavy backpack in peru. when i got home i weighted the watermelon on my bathroom scale, and it was 10 whole pounds.

i watched "the women" this evening. it was ok. i mention it because i felt it borrowed from the concept behind sex and the city – 4 very different women who are super tight friends. meh.

on my way home from sunday lunch i stopped at value village and purchased a few new items of clothes. i thought it would be prudent to acquire a pair of pants that zip-off into shorts – save some space in my backpack by having hybrid clothes. i like what i got, althought i noticed the prices have gone up there. almost all the tops i got were $5.99, and i swear i never used to spend more that $2.99 or $3.99 on t-shirts there. i'm unimpressed by that. i got this one shirt that is very uncharacteristic of me – it's covered in skull+crossbones. i know... weird huh? but i liked it and went back to the rack for it after a few minutes of pondering. i think it and my new shorts will be my new favourite outfit.

the evening is passing quickly. i'm going to TRY and make good use of it.

tell me what to do.
now the tank is dry.
now this wheel is flat.

sounds

today i crashed an 8 year old's birthday party. an 8 year old i didn't know. and still somehow managed to get a cupcake out of the deal.

last night i went to the butler's place and enjoyed their company, the newlywed stubleys, and seeing rachel too. it was really nice hangin' out. the boys took off to the movies, while jo, sarah, and i sat on the couch watching sarah's birth video of tigerlily being born. it was quite incredible – incredibly painful looking, but also really remarkable. i'm so glad it worked out well and that she arrived safely.

bren told me today that i'm surprisingly well adjusted all things considered. that's a relief. i've concluded that's a good sign.

while i was downtown doing some errands this afternoon i felt something hit the back of my leg, when i looked i discovered that my knitting needle had fallen out of my bag, and a second one was about to go. i tried to find the remaining 2, and one was missing. i back-tracked the whole way, searching for my double-ended needle, but had to give up after not finding anything. BUT when i got home i found it inside my ball of yarn :S these are the moments that make up my life... looking for knitting needles on the sidewalk on saturday afternoons. i'm a giant nerd.

i'm kind of starting to get organized for peru. i picked up a phrase book today and a travel alarm clock. i'm going to print out all the papers this week at work and confirm our remaining reservation. it's hard to know how to pack. i really don't want to bring too much stuff "just in case". we leave in 3 weeks! i can't believe it!

these are days of slow boats and false starts.

ansaphone

i finally finished the twilight series today. it was freakin' huge. it was a fun read, i wouldn't say it was the best series i've read, but was very good. like i said... fun. i will say this about stephanie meyer, she kept me guessing the whole way, there was NOTHING predictable about that 2250 page series. and that's quite the accomplishment. i've moved on to a new book that bren lent me called "fifth business" by robertson davies. so far it reminds me a little of a prayer for owen meany. i love the line "then the unforseen took over". i love it when the unforseen takes over.

i'm totally covered in mosquito bites. i leave my screen door onto the balcony open all the time while i'm at home – except for when i'm in bed. that's probably why :S

every door i ever tried was locked.

ordinary

i stood at the intersection on my bike. i waited for the cars to pass so i could carry on my way. i began to notice the people in the cars. their facial expressions, their passengers, their vehicles – you can learn a lot about someone in just a few seconds. a black truck approached and as i turned my eyes to the driver he turned his gaze towards me. our eyes locked, i knew him, and it was clear that he knew me too. it was a loaded moment. a pregnant pause. it was nice to discover that although time has past that i was not forgotten.

i'm different to you. you are different to me. we are not the same. may we find common ground instead of invading land that doesn't belong to us.

hm, i think the last guy i had a crush on might be seeing someone. this sucks because i thought he just needed some time, but it turns out he just wasn't into me. the worst part is that she has the same first name as me, only spelled different. oh well, i'll just delete him from facebook, then crawl into bed and forget about it. forget about him. i've never deleted anyone from facebook before, i feel kind of guilty. but it's ok, he won't notice, so no harm done.

i have no doubt one day the sun will come out.

cigars

sometimes instead of having a glass ceiling i feel like i'm stuck in a glass dome – surrounded on every side.

for the second time in a week shanno the raging feminist and i tried to go strawberry picking, and our efforts were thwarted – AGAIN! argh! this time we actually went there only to find a locked gate and a "sorry, we're closed" sign. that was disappointing. so i took her to grass creek park where we walked along the sandy beach with our feet in the water, sat in a big willow tree, and stood upon small limestone peninsula.

when i got home from hanging out in trees with shan i suddenly felt a strong desire for a dq blizzard, so i quickly hopped in the car and drove down to my local dq. as i drove there i thought about how great it is that the downtown location stays open til 1 am – so convenient! except, on the way i discovered that all the traffic lights were out, and dq was closed – along with all the other nearby merchants. i have NO idea what was going on, so instead i came home and had a glass of juice and a mushroom. much less satisfying.

we discovered tonight that i bought my first car before shannon had her first training bra. i'm THAT much older than her. she said with awe "i forget you're so old!" that made me laugh. i like it, i've got all these extra years under my belt, it's great!

mosquitoes are like tiny vampires.

sometimes i try to imagine myself in the grocery store of life. what would i put in my cart right now if everything was available to me? what would i take? what would i leave for next time? what would i gladly skip. it's interesting, it seems to help me keep things in perspective.

uh-oh, SOMEBODY'S late for bed.

i see God come in my garden
but i don’t know what he said
for my heart it wasn’t open.

superheros

everything i want is to my right, with the exception of three essential things to my left.

it's a beautiful day. and a beautiful night. i've been sitting out on my balcony curled up in a blanket for the last hour. i sat in silence. the only sound i heard was a siren a few blocks away and the wind in the tree out front. the sun has set and the sky is fading like dying embers.

you can't always get what you want,
but if you try sometimes you might find
you get what you need.

wanderlust

it stinks that it poured most of today, but tomorrow it's going to be sunny with a high of 25. argh. oh well. skeleton park music festival continued in spite of the rain. it was good, but a lot less fun than usual due to the weather. there was no where to sit because it was yucky! however by evening things improved and shannon and i sat on a garbage bag. bruce peninsula were the best, they really are a fantastic band, and are very interesting to watch.

my dad appeared and had the opportunity to meet some of my friends. he knows a lot of people and is very extroverted. i sometimes forget until i introduce him to people. he's the only person in my family who likes things like spmf. joy & tim came last year but felt a little out of their element.

oh my goodness, i BADLY need to crack my big toe right now. it hurts so much but it won't crack! awww! ow! times like this it would be handy to have a housemate to help me out of a jam.

i saw a great assortment of galoshes in the park today. a huge percentage of people were wearing them, and everyone's were different. it was neat. i sure do like galoshes.

bren, shan and i made a craft at the kids table (even though we're grown-ups). we made god's eyes, they're really neat, and very easy to do.

i feel really chilly. being damp leaves a "not so warm" feeling.

we live our life for the ride.

puppet

shannon and i were planning on strawberry picking tonight. but apparently strawberry picking season starts tomorrow so that spoiled our plans. instead we went bike riding and ended up at margaritaville for strawberry daiquiris. it was a great idea. todd had told us in advance that margaritaville is a dude bar and that it would be full of dudes. i'd never noticed before, but it totally IS. it was quite obvious from the time we arrived and we felt their eyes on us. eventually it became apparent that we were in the middle of some kind of meat market and people were hitting on each other and buying each other drinks. it was rather surreal. regardless, we still liked the chips & salsa, and the drinks. i think we'd go again, it wasn't bad for a VERY occassional diversion from the regular.

while we were on our bike ride we stopped at a park and sat on some big limestone rocks. we noticed a groundhog and made "aww" sounds at it, then continued chatting. a while later shannon noticed a red fox. we thought he was pretty cute too and were amazed at all the wild-life in ktown. the fox moved closer and seemed to be stalking something, i was hoping it was just a bird or one of the ducks in the pond (but not the adorable mallard ducklings that passed us in the river). he moved closer to the groundhog, and was quite clearly stalking it! i was certain nothing would happen, it was perposterous, they were almost the same size! but sure enough, the fox attacked the groundhog. i started freaking out, waving my hands at my face, saying "shannon, make him stop!", while shannon was already calling out to him, trying to break them up. eventually she ran all the way over to them and the fox trotted away, while the groundhog had managed to get inside it's burrow. we think it was safe. we then took to calling the fox profanities to calm ourselves. it was like national geographic right in front of us!

i wish i could call my mom right now to tell it to call off the troops. but it's too late and she'd already be in bed. i'll have to do it tomorrow. my stance will not have changed before morning. i wish my pride didn't smart so much. i'm back at square minus one.

haha, i just came across this on the internet and it made me laugh:

Good Idea: Getting to know someone by asking them on a date.

Bad Idea: Getting to know someone by Googling them and reading their entire blog.

that's good rule of thumb. i think everyone should follow it.

if you love me
won't you let me know?

juice box

i learned something today; i learned that golfing in the rain makes my pants fall down.

today was the second annual bombardier golf tournament. unlike last time, the weather was awful. but i donned my raincoat and galoshes, and got out there on the course. we played 9 holes. i'm not very good, and didn't really improve any but i still had fun. marilyn rented a cart and sometimes let me drive it. i liked that, golf carts are like go-carts but funner. i took it up hills and thru big puddles. i had to floor it but still went really slow. eventually she and i figured out a technique that enabled me to be a passenger while dragging my club cart along beside us. it was fun. marilyn is reckless similarly to me. am i reckless? i just said then wondered if i am or not. i think i'm fairly reckless. the stuff i'm careful with are usually things i've damaged at some time or another. anyways, i really like that about marilyn. she feels like an equal, i can talk to her like a girl-friend. my favourite part of today was driving around with her. it really confirmed the fact that i enjoy watching sporting events more than i like participating in them, and in those cases i have to know someone who's playing so i can cheer/be interested. i really do like cheering.

i got pretty soaked and it feels yucky. i'm going to one of the skeleton park music festival shows tonight, but i feel so damp that it's icky. even though i changed my clothes i still feel cold. i should probably go, i'm already late.

somethings buzzing in my ear, it's all too loud.

axe

it's always nice when people discover i'm a lot more competent then they realized. i have much more life experience than she expected. i'm hoping she realized that she's only scratched the service and that i'm an iceberg unknown to her.

i forgot my lunch this morning. but i made the conscience decision not to let that make me pissed off, or let it ruin my day. the ironic thing is that i forgot to pick up my lunchbox because my arms were full of rain gear so i could still go walking at lunch even if it rained. but then i still wasn't able to go because we had a united way committee meeting. what did i eat you ask? well i have a stash of stuff in my draw for just such an occasion – it wasn't my first time :p

if you love me
won't you let me know?

muffin top

this evening i went for a bike ride. i figured i'd take the long way down to classic video to return a movie. as i biked i passed all sorts of people i know. i frantically waved at them and carried on my merry way. i was intentional about waving frantically; i hoped it would compensate for the fact that i wasn't stopping to say hello. i couldn't! i was on a mission. my bike ride was a work-out, not just a leisurely ride thru the neighbourhoods of our great city. when i arrived at classic, i was wooed by it's new releases sign and ended up renting the first and second disc of weeds season 4. as i left i wondered how the heck i was going to get thru 10 episodes in 4 days. i have no idea. my schedule this week doesn't particularly allow for hours in front of the television. but i'm a sucker for my favourite shows on dvd. i will find a way. in fact, i might hit the "publish post" button and go watch another episode right now.

sometimes i hate being in the spotlight. it makes me feel awkward and fidgety.

adios!

i don't wanna battle from beginning to end.

free

blogger won't let me log-in. so i'm trying this newfangled way thru my gmail. it's like writing an email, but when i sent it it's supposed to post on my blog. (mental note: do not accidentally send personal emails to pspd). i've been kind of intrigued by this concept and have been awaiting an opportunity to try it out. this is exciting.....

i kind of love that writing a blog entry via gmail is the most exciting thing that has happened to me in the last week. things are quite quiet in my head and home these days. it's pretty rare for me to feel this at peace. what amazes me the most is that i'm ENJOYING the peace. usually i get freaked out by calmness, as though it's simply the eye of the storm. i don't mind, because i'm sure that something randomly exciting will happen to me again in the near future. i don't need excitement every day. routine does not beget excitement.

francisco is trying to teach me some spanish before i go to peru (july 18). today we greeted each other "buenos dias", then he said me "that's good morning, what's good afternoon?", i looked at him sheepishly and suggested "buenos afternoon?". he rolled his eyes and said "oh $!#@, we have a long way to go..." but i think i've gotten the hang of it. good afternoon is "buenos tardes".

this afternoon i spent $4.50 on this week's groceries. i think that's a record low. i rewarded myself by going to canadian tire and picking up a few odds & ends that i've been needing (an oven lightbulb, a wood broom pole, etc). i LOVE getting things off my mental "to-do" list. i get a deep sense of satisfaction out of it.

so come over
just be patient
and don't worry

touch

sunday lunch • viva la vida • driving with the windows down • sun • wind turbines • butter tarts • harmony • balcony • phone book • searching • finding • rabbit-proof fence • snacks • comfy couch • good company • time • peace • connection • cups of tea • red wine • hugs • breeze • clean laundry • laughs • toes • classic video • flip flops • blue toenail polish • quiet • light sleep • bead • flight of the concordes • skittles • secrets • love

it's such a perfect day.

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vote

to my surprise, i discovered that i'm more shallow than i thought. i've been needing a new pair of birks since last summer when i got a hole in my sole. i went to my favourite birk shoe store (thanasis – best prices in town), and looked thru the selection. i've had the same style of birks for the last 10 years – black with 3 straps – i've bought replacements 3 times, all exactly the same. but i noticed a lady wearing a different style and i quite liked it, so i thought i'd try something different. when i was at the shoe store i couldn't see the exact style i was looking for, but found something else. i tried them on, and hummed + hawed, until i decided to do it. they're more delicate than i'm used it, more grown-up. but they're also kind of funky. i think it'll take me some time to get used to. when i got them home and put them on, my stomach dropped when i discovered they weren't birkenstocks, they were "birki's" i was quite confused because they seemed exactly the same as birks, but i immediately wanted to take them back. they weren't "real birkenstocks", and this bothered me a lot, "what would people think?!?!" yes, i know, that's preposterous. and i'm ashamed that that thought even passed thru my head. i looked closer at them, they were still good quality, and they were comfortable, and slightly less expensive. so i finally swallowed hard and accepted the fact that i did not have a brand-name sandle :S funnily enough, when i was searching for a photo for the link above i discovered that birki's are a line of shoes made by birkenstock. so i got what i wanted AND learned a valuable lesson. i hang my head in shame.

if i lived closer to the bulk barn i think i'd shop there often. i bought some spices there today for dirt cheap! i feel like i've awoken to the bulk barn. what a fabulous store! you get a lot of quantity without the excess packaging or brand-names (as we've just discovered, i am sometimes swayed by such things – at least when i believe it's a question of quality). i raise my glass to toast the bulk barn.

rach lent me season one of "flight of the concordes". it's all the rage at storytellers, the whole gang really likes it, and i can see why! within minutes i was a fan. so great.

the only peace i get is from hearing your voice.

balloons

it finally happened.... my worst fear since i got my first email account. i've been afraid that i'll accidentally send an email to the wrong person. today it finally happened. thankfully the person i'd accidentally sent the email to was david, and it was intended for melissa. this is a good thing because there's nothing i wouldn't talk to david about, so regardless of the content it was ok for him to have read it. i love that he figured out that the email wasn't for him when he read "you're cool and have taught me words like diuretic". hopefully this experience has taught me to be more careful in the future, because david may not be on the receiving end of all my misdirected emails.

i donated blood tonight. it seems my veins are quite narrow and they weren't able to get a whole pint out of me. i knew my veins were small because they have difficulty tapping into one each time, but i didn't realize it affected how much blood they were able to extract from me. it was a busy place in there, i saw 4 people that i knew. i might not be able to donate next time because i'll have just arrived back from peru. matt was denied recently because of our trip to mexico, but they told me that puerto villarta was ok. i'm pretty sure i don't have malaria, or am a malaria carrier. i liked reading the twilight series at the blood bank. and i liked how warm the tube of blood was on my arm.

i want him to eat his heart out.

i’m not waiting for this to come to that.

reconnaissance

so far this cleaning one room a night thing is going excellently! tonight i did the back porch, it looks great – i was very thorough. there was crap out there from 2 summers ago :S i feel very satisfied each time i pass thru there, and it didn't take very long either. since i didn't bite off more than i could chew i also cleaned out my refrigerator. it was much over due. it's completely barren now, like a wasteland. looking at my fridge there's no denying that i'm a bachelorette :D i kind of like that. anyways, i've resolved to put things where i can see them, or else they slip into the blackhole that is the back of my fridge.

melissa came for dinner tonight – she brought it with her. i like when friends bring food to my house, because i like having company, but i'm not super comfortable cooking for others. it was not the first time she's done that, beckie does it too.

it's interesting the glimpse one gets at someone's life thru their facebook status. not just the information they say, but the things they choose to share. it also shows how creative or funny people are. it's easy to tell the different between a creative person and a more serious person from their status.

i've thrown logic out the window. logic is illogical. for me at least. there are just way too many balls in the air to expect to figure everything out using logic. i think my gut is more often correct than my logic.

and i'm gonna stretch so tall,
gonna break the sky above me.

brain/storm

sometimes i think we lose even when we win.

it seems there is an upside to doing things i don't want to do... getting to do things i DO want to do. the reality is, we can't have two things at once. we can't eat everything we want in excess and still expect to be fit, we can't sleep all day and still expect to have a job, we can't not work and still expect to have money, we can't say whatever we want and still expect people to like us, we can't never do housework and still expect to have a clean+tidy house. so i guess the end result makes the effort worth it, i'm just hoping that one of these days doing good will become first nature, and it won't require so much effort. my current project is (not a surprise) cleaning my house, but my plan is to tidy one room each day, and just continue in that cycle. if i do a small amount each day it shouldn't be too hard to maintain. i'll keep you posted.

i biked to yoga class tonight. it seems i only takes about 6 and a half minutes to get to the YMCA from the m centre on a bicycle. handy. bikes really aren't much slower then cars in short distances. i love how my bicycle helmet looks like a motorcycle helmet. i love that some day i'll have a real motorcycle helmet because some day i'll have my very own vespa :) man, it's gonna be so rad.....

i was telling my table-mates at jo's wedding what an esthetically pleasing name i have. check this out....

Lesley McKnight

isn't that a beaut? i love the ascending and descending letters. nice mixture, the capital K really adds something i think. i'm not just saying this because it's my name, i've just noticed because i've looked at it my entire life. Tigerlily is also quite attractive, sarah did well. i find it interesting that my last name has 8 letters but only one vowel.

i tried to be good,
but i wasn't very good at it.

cleavage

i wonder what percentage of the day i spend trying to behave contrary to my instincts. fighting my emotions in favour of my mind. ignoring the urge to run and hug my friend, repressing my desire to write a certain email, smothering a harsh comment from coming out of my mouth, stopping my craving for junk-food, forcing myself awake when i'd rather be sleeping, making myself do housework. i seriously think i spend most of my time counter-intuitively. no wonder i feel exhausted. don't get me wrong, these decisions are probably good. actually they're probably the best decisions, but it's a difficult practice, and i wish it didn't require so much energy to be good and well behaved. i suppose that's why it's called self-discipline. i just wish i didn't have to inhibit my uninhibited self. *sigh* one of these days, perhaps, my mind, heart, and body may align and become synchronized. then peace and love will reign in my noggin.

i'm hoping for some hope.

i like that you know me by name, because you're still little more than a mystery to me.

we'll cast some light and you'll be alright.

tension

i'm becoming quite a fan of napping. for me, the key to a successful nap is to avoid REM sleep. because if i reach that level of sleep i'm too grumpy when i wake up. i just passed out on the couch accidentally, it was unavoidable. the afternoon has been pleasant, warm, i could hear the wind in the trees and feel it blow thru my window. the kitties where playing, and my balcony door was wide open. i allowed myself to slip away in contentment. lovely.

i didn't have to work yesterday :D as part of the united way committee, i participated in the "day of caring" where we volunteered doing manual labour at a united way funded facility. we were at interval house, i painted. i was very impressed with their set-up, very professional, well equipped, and safe. it was very eye-opening. it really hit me the number of women and children that go thru there every year, in KINGSTON! it was very sobering, and i tip my hat to the people who serve to protect these girls and their children.

it was a great day, i was able to WALK to interval house, and it gave me a taste of what it would be like to work downtown. FABULOUS. i got home at a good time and biked over to joy's place for caleb's 4th birthday party. my mom and i had had a misunderstanding about his gift and both of us thought the other one was picking it up. so i borrowed her car and took joelle with me to the store. it was fun. she chatted away to me from the backseat and held my hand as we shopped. it was a neat feeling – taking care of her in public like that. she's getting so big, almost 6 and has her first loose tooth.

today was joanna's canadian wedding day. i drove with michelle and kelly. i'd never been to an anglician wedding before, i suspect its very similar to a catholic wedding. i was kind of excited to do the eucharist during the service, kneeling at the front and being given a waffer. i wanted them to hold the gobblet up to my mouth so i could drink directly from it, but the lady who served me didn't do that so i had to just dip my waffer in it. it was weird tasting wine, but we figured it didn't come from the liquor store :S that being said, i don't think i could attend a traditional church regularly. it was great to see jo, and i hope to see her at least once more before they go back to australia.

this evening i'm going to see star trek with sherri s-s. she saw my plea for a movie buddy and she emailed me because she hasn't seen it either. so handy having an weblog.

i've been thinking about you a lot lately. i almost wanted to write an entry as an open letter to you. instead i slept it off, dreaming a bit about you.

the sea is just a wetter version of the skies.

padlock

we peddled around kingston with a camera taking photos of graffiti and grumpled old licence plates. i borrowed melissa's big fancy camera so i could take some decent photos for my website. the website i registered for a while ago but haven't done anything with in over a month. i invited shannon to join me while i scoped out cool pictures, and figured i could use her as a prop. i quickly discovered that everything is beautiful when captured with a great camera. i'm really very pleased with the photos i took. i'm not exactly sure how i'm going to use them, i took 103 shots :S this is good, i'll be able to sort out the crap from the quality, and use the best ones. now all i need is to come up with some kind of application – how do i want to use these pictures. but i'm on the right track. this is good. plus it was super fun. i'm definitely going to have to purchase a good camera if i'm going to have my own design business. i'd love to show you the photos i took this evening, but i'm afraid i don't have the cord to download the pictures onto my computer, so another time. it was fun. definitely something to do again.

one of the most bizarre things we found this evening was the place ICE freezers go to die. on montreal street there's a whole fenced in parking lot full of ICE freezers. i'll show you when i get the photos from melissa. it was very puzzling. i can't imagine why they were all imprisoned there.

i like sitting on friends' beds listening to them talk about their blind date – what they're going to wear, talk about, feel afterwards. it's so much fun. i wish i had more casual dating friends. i wish i had more opportunities to casually date. but it's ok. i'll just get my entertainment elsewhere.

i still glance up that street, to look at that house everytime i pass. looking for a car i know i'll never seen. watching for a car i don't want to see. my habits never cease.

in hindsight, the waitress MIGHT have said "the other lady" instead of "the other lesbian".

ninety-nine dreams i have had –
every one a red balloon.

prison

you are like a bad song that's stuck in my head.

i tuned up my bicycle today and took it for my first ride of the season. yes, i AM rather late out of the gate this year, i've been procrastinating due to my rusty-chain and deflated tires. i'm pretty pleased with myself that i was able to tune it up all by myself, it rode SO smoothly. the smoothest i've ever known it to be – makes me wish i'd done this years ago. although, i will need some help with the gear-shift (it's stuck), i'll ask jonni about it next time i see him. i went for a fairly long ride, out to kingston pen, down beside the lake, past the far-side of the courthouse, then home again. it felt great. just like riding a bike :)

reading other people's emails (mail intended for other people) is a huge pick-me-up. that was the best laugh i've had all evening. i'm still wiping my eyes over it.

hey listen... would anyone like to go see the star trek movie with me? i haven't seen it yet and i don't have a movie buddy. i'm pretty flexible. lemme know if you're interested, seriously.

i think it's time for me to bid you adieu. until tomorrow, sleep well and dream dreams ;)

be my mirror,
my sword and shield.

engineers

ok so i'm taking this 7 habits of highly effective people training at work today and tomorrow. and i've got to say, it was the most interesting day at work that i've had in a long long time. i feel like i've learned a lot and hope to implement it. the most impacting thing i absorbed today was habit 2: start when the end in mind. this makes sense to me in terms of my dishes, because let's be honest, i really don't care if my dishes are done aside from the embarrassment of a filthy kitchen and slight inconvenience. yes, it does help my peace of mind when my house is clean, but that's not enough of a motivation for me. however, if i keep in mind that doing my dishes regularly = a clean house = having friends and family over regularly/having the freedom to go out and socialize at the drop of a hat, then i'm all game. so i did my dishes today reminding myself that i'm doing for the people i love much more than for myself, and that made me happy.

as part of this training we had to complete this self-evaluation, and send the same survey to our boss and some of our colleagues. i got the results of that today. i have so say, it seems the knickers was not paying attention very well, she marked me high on punctuality, and lower on honesty. if i'm anything, i'm honest with her, and i'm ALWAYS late for work. but whatever, i'll mostly ignore her responses because she gave me 100% on almost everything – not helpful. some of the other people's responses were odd, some of the places i marked myself high in they marked me lower, and the ways i marked myself lower they marked me high. it made me wonder who's delusional – them or me.

oh my goodness, sorry if i'm quiet on the emailing front these days. i'll hopefully be able to be in touch with regularity again soon :S

they're lives bore me to the point of claustrophobia.

never a breath you can afford to waste.

woo woo woo. things are GETTING interesting........