it hit me last night that i'm turning 27 this year. i'm freaked out about it. i realize that to some of you 27 seems still young, but its all a matter of perspective, and right now 27 is older than i am currently. and to be completely honest i thought i'd probably be getting married at 27. now keep in mind, i'm really happy right now and i don't even want a boyfriend much less to be geting hitched. however, i still feel slightly disappointed that things have not unfolded as i expected. i find myself bracing myself saying "you'll still be single this time next year. don't get into that mode of thinking 'maybe by the time i'm 29...' because that's just setting yourself up to feel like a failure". granted things can change quite rapidly, i didn't expect to meet vinc', that was pretty sudden, but that's not the norm. i hate hearing my mom say stuff like "when you settle down" because it feeds the idea that i'm not settled, when i am in fact QUITE settled – at least as settled as i want to be. yesterday garry said to me "how are you?" and i told him "i'm very well. i'm very happy, things are great. i have a lot of really wonderful people in my life". and its true. ok that's enough about that. i'll keep mulling that over in my head. one thing i know is i feel fabulous. i'm confident in who i am and who i will be. there's nothing wrong with me. i'm proud of how far i've come.
today we all had to leave the office at 4 because the power was being cut for some on-site work. we were told to take everything out of the fridges or they'd be bad by monday. marilyn let me have 2 blocks of icecream. hmm, maybe i'll go have some right now.
knickers is always saying "absolute power corrupts absolutely". that came to mind this evening when i saw the lost city at the screening room with the girls.
don't wake me i plan on sleeping in.
4 comments:
i think the way you met vinc' is exactly the norm. life changes suddenly. there's no point in pretending there are lots of nice gradual beginnings. that's not the norm.
how i met vinc' was really not the norm. i doubt having a handsome french stranger come walking into your life is the norm for anyone.
i wasn't refering to gradual beginnings. more that is unusual to have a really great guy just be dropped into your life. if so, most of my single friends probably wouldn't find themselves wondering "where to you meet nice guys?"
i'm quite accustomed to life changing out of the blue. that's what i both love and hate about life.
oh ok. that makes more sense then. i agree with that. frenchmen frequently drop into my life, but they are rarely as high-quality as vinc'.
yes, its true. i concur.
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