jones

it's funny.
or odd or something.
i knew yesterday that unless i went to bed early last night i'd be really tired today, but i didn't so now i'm tired.

i don't where i left things off, but we're home now (got home monday night/tuesday morning). i'll tell you more about it later - specifically the turtle watching on our last night in tortuguero.

i lost my ipod, or at least accidentally left it behind at a hotel. when we left cahuita, we went to buy our bus ticket to the next town and they sold us a ticket an hour earlier than we'd planned so we went back to pack up, and in our rush my tiny ipod must have been overlooked or fallen out of sight. i was pretty bummed. i get attached to things that have given me many special and memorable experiences. i was partly sad that it was gone, partly sad that i'd let myself down by loosing it, and partly sad that i was about to travel for two days straight without it. i had hoped to upgrade to an ipod touch eventually, so it looks like i'll be getting one sooner than planned. the more i thought about it, the more convinced i am that an itouch is a good idea. over recent years, internet cafe's are harder to find when travelling, and i don't have a laptop for when i travel with work. an itouch would give me more connectivity and access to more information - such as delayed flights.

due to many factors, marilyn is going to be retiring in january. i'm going to miss her a lot. she's my best pal at work and a good colleague. as a result, i'm going to have to take on many of her responsibilities, which means travelling to more conferences and exhibitions. i'm most likely going to calgary in early september and phoenix next april. i have mixed feelings about this. emma and i have some big decisions to make about our team (because susanne is leaving too) and how things work. it's nice that emma is involving me so much, it gives me the chance to help structure things in a way that works for me, as well as what i think will work best for the organization. it's funny, i never saw myself as a career woman. and yet, i'm in a position where i'm heavily depended on and have become indisposable. it's both assuring and worrying. i wish i knew another person in my position to talk to for some advise, or even just to hear how she sees navigated her life.

yesterday was a different kind of day. the kind when i was reminded that jobs change, people move on, and nothing stays the same forever. it's not scary. it's good, but confusing because there's so many feelings at once. and life feels a little hazy.

 

you took the air,

you took the time,
you were fed and you were free.