maybe it's just me, because i like to listen to songs on repeat, but it's really annoying when a song i like is followed by a song i dislike (or even worse... is super sad). i start to associate them and end up hearing the other more much than i'd like.
this weekend we were up at echo lake camp for the next retreat. it was really fun and memorable. this year my weekend was quite busy with other activities in addition to the retreat. so it required a great deal of juggling, paired with a go-with-the-flow attitude. sometimes we can't know how things are going to play out, so it's best to just roll with it. that makes life much easier, or at least more relaxing.
on friday night, we assembled our tent in the dark - quickly and very unmeticulously. it ended up raining all night, thunder storming at points and sounding like a tornado at other points. last summer at bon echo b and i camped thru a super scary and dangerous thunderstorm. after that, everything else seems like no big deal. or at least it does to me. for brendan, the rain on friday night was really stressful and made him feel panicky. he got next to no sleep and woke me up repeatedly with concern out the water getting inside. at 4 something in the morning i said to him "brendan, what are we going to do about it right now??" that kind of helped and he seemed to resign his concerns to some extent. in hindsight, i learned that b isn't at his best outside his regular routine or in undesirable circumstances. and i learned that i'm fairly rugged and less easily phased. when facing an unpleasant situation with no alternative options, i just make the best of it.
we spent the next day with no place to lay our heads and not really worrying about it. at around midnight when we arrived back at camp from a kathleen edwards concert in kingston, we ended up taking our sleeping mats and sleeping bags into the unused tuck shop and slept in the small space between the wall and the chest freezer. it was perfectly adaquate and we slept very well.
i took a nice long walk by myself to classic video last night in the dark. it was lovely and reminded me that i need to walk alone more often after sunset. it's very condusive to thought. i was reflecting on the weekend and thought a little about an observation bren made. she told me "you interact with babies like they're people". at first i didn't really understand what she was talking about, because obviously they are people. but she said most people are drawn to picking up babies and cuddling babies the same way they do with puppies. as things to be cuddled. i think she's right. i feel no more desire to cuddle a baby then i do to cuddle their parents.
this weekend we were up at echo lake camp for the next retreat. it was really fun and memorable. this year my weekend was quite busy with other activities in addition to the retreat. so it required a great deal of juggling, paired with a go-with-the-flow attitude. sometimes we can't know how things are going to play out, so it's best to just roll with it. that makes life much easier, or at least more relaxing.
on friday night, we assembled our tent in the dark - quickly and very unmeticulously. it ended up raining all night, thunder storming at points and sounding like a tornado at other points. last summer at bon echo b and i camped thru a super scary and dangerous thunderstorm. after that, everything else seems like no big deal. or at least it does to me. for brendan, the rain on friday night was really stressful and made him feel panicky. he got next to no sleep and woke me up repeatedly with concern out the water getting inside. at 4 something in the morning i said to him "brendan, what are we going to do about it right now??" that kind of helped and he seemed to resign his concerns to some extent. in hindsight, i learned that b isn't at his best outside his regular routine or in undesirable circumstances. and i learned that i'm fairly rugged and less easily phased. when facing an unpleasant situation with no alternative options, i just make the best of it.
we spent the next day with no place to lay our heads and not really worrying about it. at around midnight when we arrived back at camp from a kathleen edwards concert in kingston, we ended up taking our sleeping mats and sleeping bags into the unused tuck shop and slept in the small space between the wall and the chest freezer. it was perfectly adaquate and we slept very well.
i took a nice long walk by myself to classic video last night in the dark. it was lovely and reminded me that i need to walk alone more often after sunset. it's very condusive to thought. i was reflecting on the weekend and thought a little about an observation bren made. she told me "you interact with babies like they're people". at first i didn't really understand what she was talking about, because obviously they are people. but she said most people are drawn to picking up babies and cuddling babies the same way they do with puppies. as things to be cuddled. i think she's right. i feel no more desire to cuddle a baby then i do to cuddle their parents.
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